Obviously, I've been having issues again. Just want you all to know that I'm still thinking of you guys and the game and everything involved. I went to Brunei and they didn't have any internet! It was sadface.
However, it should also be noted, as I'm struggling at the moment, that I'm clinically and cyclically depressed - though the desire to post and my love of you guys and your characters and the game remains, a lot of my energy and will to actually do the things I genuinely want to do is gone. I think about the games, I read the materials over and over, and I genuinely want to talk to everyone, but I can't make myself sign on or write. I am constantly frustrated by myself, sitting and playing pointless bejeweled games when I know this is waiting for me.
I just can't describe it any better than that.
I am here and settled again with a Visa for another 30 days so hopefully I will be more regular. I understand if anyone doesn't really want to deal with a probably sporadic game as I try to get back into my routines and patch myself up.
All that said, I'm fighting hard for this hobby of mine that probably literally saved my life in the last bad patch I went through.
And yeah, I get that this might be needlessly melodramatic, but I wanted to get it out there. I owe you all that much. I'll be working over what I need to get caught up on today.
~L
PBP games aren't meant to go by in a flash. They're meant to be enjoyed with purpose. Each post is supposed to be meaningful and memorable. To me, that encourages a sense of patience in all PBP. That you made the effort to post an update about things being a bit scrambled for you, says you still want this bad enough to make an appearance. That's good enough for me. Long as you don't disappear without a word (couple games already did that) then you'll hear no complaints from me.
Just take the time to center yourself, figure out how to shake off whatever's weighing you down, and the rest will come on its own.
noro miss you
I agree with Isabella, take whatever time you need, just keeping us informed is already more than so many other PbP GM's here have done before.
Lexi, I'm having a blast in both the games you're running and the games you're sharing with me and I want you to do the same. You certainly shouldn't feel burdened. We're here for you. We're happy to be. Pace things however you need to to enjoy the game and if you need a week away, take it. We'll be here when you return.
Hey Lexi not to worry
I got Reck around in the meantime
Sorry to hear you're having a rough time of things. I'm having a lot of fun in-game, and it sounds like the others are, too. The depression bubble can be tough. If you want somebody to talk to and you're still in the SF area, I'm available. Or, you know, phone or e-mail. Let us know if there's anything we can do to help. Thanks again for being willing to run this. I'm having a blast.
Maybe we should all set up a time to go to a Skype-Pub™ together. :)
Skype-pub? Skypub? Flows a little smoother without the extra P. Just hate how Skype is more of a memory hog than other voice chats...poor old PC of mine is a trooper, but I can only push it so far, heh.
Haha. I hate skype with a passion. :) That's why I like stuff like roll20 - just less memory eating. XD I'm not in SF, I'm back in Thailand (thus going to Brunei), else I'd definitely visit. Sort of rebuilding my social scene from the ground up. :)
Oof. Ok. This week the 'stuff' has been mostly good. I got a computer, and it has hero lab. Yay! My friend was in the hospital briefly and I am going travelling again this weekend ... but these are all good things. :D Also working on work and a master's degree.
ANYWAY. I am here. :D
Just an FYI: This weekend is a "run around in the woods and hit my friends with sticks" weekend. I'll be back sometime on sunday and I'll be able to catch up then.
*BOFF!*
It's the simple things in life, eh?
I seriously thought I'd posted that. SIGH. My friend had her gallbladder out this weekend so instead of doing fun stuff, I was doing grocery shopping, laundry, cooking, and taking care of dogs. :)
She's back home now!
in my world...grocery shopping, laundry, cooking, and taking care of dogs...that is a fun day.
with all the crap I have gone through the past year or so I love days like that.
in any event I do hope all went well with the gallbladder surgury.
from experience keep an eye on her for several weeks and look for signs of jauntice (yellow eyes and yellow skin color) that may be complications from the surgury.
For some perspective, Noros, this was where I was supposed to be going this weekend.
But I hear you - it was nice being able to be there for her. We're keeping close watch!
If all goes as planned this July
I plan on being here for 7 Caribbean nights
I also would love to go where you were going as well but I am a Parrot head / wanna be Pirate so the Caribbean is where I must go
Yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me.
Arrr.
Booty.
Aye. Avast!
Land ho! Very different from the much more common sea ho, but not nearly as elusive as the sky ho. :)
Lexi come back....
Bump
RARHGSHSHGS SPIT GROWL HISS. I'm here. Very angry at Thai internets, but here. I'm catching up as I can, but I can't guarantee their s+*%ty TOT line won't go down as soon as a drop of rain hits it ...
and its (@*&#%(@*#(&%(@#%ing rainy season right now.
GRRRR.
Ahhh, the frustrations of limited technology mixed with fickle conditions.
Good times.
Ok. I know I was gone again. >< This time it was a vacation. The good news is, I no longer have any more vacations, I have a computer, the building's internet seems to have stabilized, I'm working on schedules with my therapist to keep me organized, and most of my other friends seem healthy and unlikely to go into the hospital for emergency surgery!
In fact, next month my mother is going to the US for almost two months, giving me a lot of time to be lonely and clingy to you all. :)
Point being, I am here. Most likely my scheduling will put me on one post a day minimum to keep me organized, but that'll be better than on again off again.
Apologies again for the yoyoing. I've been trying different meds and not meds and its wrecking havok with sleep and general ability to focus; either I'm sleeping 14 hours a day, or I'm awake but a zombie.
Hopefully that will work out soon.
All that said, this is my favorite game I'm running. I've put a lot of work into little charts and maps and things that will come into play later. Point is, this game will always be at the top of any list of things gamelike to do that I have, and I really am sorry for neglecting it lately. Convolution of life.
I particularly like this AP because it leaves so much scope for running around RPing instead of worrying about mechanics. Never fear, though, your level up is soon. :)
Welcome back then, Lexi. Best part of PBP is it's not for the shortsighted. We're not goin' anywhere.
Agreed. Finding the right balance with meds and therapies is important. The wait wasn't long at all for a PBP, and this is my favorite game that I'm participating in right now. Glad to hear that things are going better for you.
You guys are my favoritest. You really are!
No problemo miz bean. I'm thoroughly enjoying your game. I'm glad things are stabilizing for you, but like the rest have said PBP works just fine with interruptions.
guesh Noro ish back again.
Hey reck more pimpin' time!
My favoritist players!
Random question: anyone play in any Star Trek games? XD
My favoritist players!
Random question: anyone play in any Star Trek games? XD
I watch it on BBC...does that count?
Maybe!
At risk of starting a war...
I'm in a star wars Saga campaign here on the boards.
Yeah, you heard right. Whatcha gonna do about it?!
No, don't play any Star Trek games. I am, however, a rabid third-generation Trekkie. And an equally rabid Star Wars fan. Yes, I support both teams.
Hey guys. My apologies ... I had a pretty bad week in the land of my mental health.
Any sign of Brillup these days? I miss our frog!
Now that you mention it, he HAS been shy of posts. Gonna be a little upset if we don't get our frog ca--WE WERE PROMISED A FROG CAPTAIN.
He's our cleric too...not lookin' good for the crew of the wormwood.
He's been missing from the other campaign that I'm in with him, as well. Our fearless leader does appear to have disappeared. Accursed frogs!
Although isn't Sandara a cleric? NPC, yeah, but covers the healing base, at least.
Sorry things aren't going so hot, Lexi. Anything we can do?
Bump. Is the campaign going to continue, or are we out? I can re-flavor my character to take Brillup's role and fill the Cleric slot. I haven't done too much that requires wizard, and I could use the retraining rules if necessary.
just got back from vacation.
had a nice trip to the Bahamas.
still here just need to decide what to do
I'm here, guys ... I was poking Brllup because he's in another campaign of mine and is posting, but he doesn't appear to reply to PMs either. Soooo, I guess Sandara will follow ya'll.
Ok, so I've hewn down the games I'm in. granted, a lot of that was idling out or games dying, but I think I'm at a manageable level now. Unfortunately, as things deteriorated for me part of the issue was feeling responsible for so much that I couldn't keep a handle on anymore.
Its to the point where posting once a day doesn't have to be so difficult now, so I'm ... here. And I know its been quiet and slow ... but I'll be playing Sandara for now - still hoping to get Brillup back.
Agreed. I think my insatiable subconscious need for more PBP settled a bit when my active games started appearing in two columns rather than one, which I found hilarious for my own reasons.
Sad thing is, looks like a few might be sputtering just as they've started, too...
I still have several dead games on my lists. also a few I bailed on when I just could not get into character.
I like Lexi's game and at some point I may resurrect my game but I am quite involved in stuff right now so that is something I am not looking at right now.
If and when I do resurrect my game I'll post here first to get players before open recruitment.
OK if interested and you can see pics on facebook
here is the link to pictures of the cruise vacation (almost 500 pics)
I'm like 2 games shy of having three columns (technically, I don't think they 3 column). I run 3 and play in like 9. I run a TT every Fri, and every once in a while I run RotRL TT for the wife and kids.
I'm always on the lookout for my next fix.
Dang. Thought I was addicted.
Durvin wins. :) Tomorrow's my tabletop day. :D
You can 'hide' them with the circle with a cross through it..
Red Ramage