Zilla's page

Dom Waverider wrote:

I did my catch up reading and realized after that I am doing this a lot lately. So I came to realize I just need to let a few things go. So sorry. I think it's time I fade into the background. I may return some time, but I won't be for awhile. Thanks for all the fun. I will still keep checking in and see how things are going.

If things didn't work out with Ignace I kinda thought you know Zilla... well, she... I .... ahh who am I kidding she wouldn't go for me anyway

And here I was giving up on flirting with you. The googly eyes for my bff and all. ;)

Zilla wrote:

While inspecting Her mind Phaezerial realizes that the bond between Zilla and Hew's mind is only blocked by a mental block, someone has placed. It is as if they are two minds in one. Many of important parts of the mind are doubled and some are just shared between the two minds.

::Interesting. I do not know yet if your unique minds will interfere, but it does not immediately appear that it will. Let us move on to viewing your memories of your attack and for some time before it. Zilla, I am sorry to ask this, but can you start with the last thing you remember? I will be able to navigate your memories once you set me upon the path, as it were.::

::Well I remember Hew saying good bye then I saw Ignace for a little bit. After that.. Oh there was this girl with great shoes that I talked to for a little bit. Oh the there was a cute boy. I couldn't bring myself to talk to him.:: A vision of that memory flows through her mind. There was the shining image of a student the school along with a slightly angry girl holding his hand. Seemingly in conversation with whoevers memory this is.

::After that I went on a walk past the lake.:: Images of older guy students swimming flow through her memories now.

Focusing his thoughts into a loose net, Phaezeriel reaches out for Zilla's mind with his own. After a few moments Zilla can feel his presence with her in her own mind, and his calm mental voice is clear, ::Just relax, Zilla, I will only look around at those memories which pertain to this unfortunate occurrence.::

Before he begins looking for the memories he seeks, Phaezeriel evaluates the uniqueness of the mental bond between Hew and Zilla.

While inspecting Her mind Phaezerial realizes that the bond between Zilla and Hew's mind is only blocked by a mental block, someone has placed. It is as if they are two minds in one. Many of important parts of the mind are doubled and some are just shared between the two minds.

Sorry been having a bit of trouble with the net.

"Thank you Esha." Zilla tells her giving her a slight curtsy as well. When Krays asks speaks Zilla Squeaks and slips behind Hew. "Ow you scared. Are you the person that needs to look at our memories?" She asks softly.

"I know it wasn't Hew, but the fake Hew isn't here." She responds to Ephebe.

"Thanks guys, but you don't have to worry about my feelings. What I'm most worried about is if he does it again to someone else." She looks to each of them pausing slightly at Midori. At which point she smiles to her. Slowly she turns to Hew. "Hew what do you think? Let Esha, Miss Blackscale's friend or both try." She asks him but before he can answer. "Both would be best Esha can also meet another psychic this way and be taught how our world works with psychics."

"Hi Grim. It's nice to meet you Kay." Zilla responds bowing slightly to Kay. "Where's Hew? There you are!" She calls out looking around for him. Quickly she walks over to him. "Jerk!" She calls out then slaps him hard enough that the sound echos. "How dare you kill me! And don't make excuses like it wasn't me cause I know that but it was still your face and I can't slap them!" She continues yelling out until she finally reaches out and hugs him. "I was so scared! I thought they might try to kill you too!" She continues.

Hew stands there wide eyed and unsure of how to respond. When she finally pulls away from the hug he flinches back. At which Zilla asks "Why are you backing up?"

Hew replies with a slight embarrassed tone. "I thought you were going to hit me again."

She sees shapes coming down the path, she lowers herself back to Long and Zilla.

"Some beings are coming, but not from the village"

Then there is daylight all around her and the others.

Daylight 60' centred on her, a psicystal of some kind in her, it was not there a moment ago. As she has light going its as bright as day.

As the area becomes lit up Zilla recognizes everyone and charges toward them. "There you guys are!!!" She yells trying to get the groups attention.

Zilla wrote:

"Wha!" Zilla cries out as she starts to fall. Her sudden impact is stopped suddenly. "I'm floating. I so like to fly." She tells themas she sets her feet on the ground. "Ooh sparkly."

"Good, you will be fine now but if you feel weak, I can carry you"

Alrnnneesha follows the others, watching them so as to fit in, doing as they do.

"No I can walk. I'm jut not sure where we are and I'm not so sure where to go. So I will let you two lead the way." She replies to her while looking around worriedly.

"Wha!" Zilla cries out as she starts to fall. Her sudden impact is stopped suddenly. "I'm floating. I so like to fly." She tells themas she sets her feet on the ground. "Ooh sparkly."

"Sun you probably know the location better than me. So could you direct her." Zilla smiled to Sun. Besides I'm having some trouble focusing right now. Since I think there may have been a backlash when I was killed."

"Yes that would be fine I want to make sure that I can still since his presence when he is near. I always know if he's alive and all, but when he killed me I didn't since him like I normally do." Zilla replies with a respectful tone.

"That is... an interesting name. Reminds me of the mindscape always shifting. It's nice I just don't want to be stuck there anymore. Oh you can take us to them. Can you bring us back to I don't want to ruin their trip." Zilla tells her hoping that they can avoid forcing the others to return.

"Yes please that would be great. I'm not sure what happens to Hew when this all happened so I really need to know if he is ok. And we he would kill me! The jerk. Hmff." She finishes with while crossing her arms. "Alreenneesha your name is kinda hard to say can we call you Esha? It's a lot easier and it's cute." Zilla smiles to her after the question.

Zilla wrote:

"I would like that." She replied with a smile. "Oh dear no. We're still not sure what my true form is. Only that I am connected to Hew. That jerk. In only the last month have I even had a body to use." She sighed as she thought of the mindscape she had been trapped within. "After being killed I was back there again. Till the kitty man and you healed me. Then I was able to return to my body once again. I guess that answers that question but not why they would kill me." Zilla looks over Alreenneesha. "Why is it I can see through you? I like it but why are you like that?"

"Good then we shall be, this makes me happy"

she nods

"and Hew? is that a place or thing? where is this Jerk. I am sorry I don't really understand."

She looks around and a seat moves over on its own, you think she may have moved it so how. She sits on it, still holding you hand.

"I am still getting use to time frames like Mouths, I mean I know what such a things are but I have speeded myself up somewhat to detect them in a meaningful way."

She thinks for a moment

[]"You asked why you can see through me. Well we star-seeds have forms of the Electromagnet force. Right now I am within a bandwidth of the light or photon wave form, that are visible light that matter forms such as your-selfs optical seance organs in other words eyes and such can see. As my form is an Electromagnet energy filed other forms of Electromagnet energy can pass thought it. In that way you see thought me. That is about as simple a response as I can contrive"[/b]

Then looks puzzled

"I know of the dream lands, I use dreams of matter forms and others to move sometimes, also to peek into there lives, to see and feel what they do. I find it most informing, I even try to help when I can. You are from the Dreamlands then, I being of dream?"

She is very interesting by the sounds of it.

"The mindscape is like a dream I guess. Ones mind can control what goes on. It reflects your emotions and dreams. It's like a place that your mind can escape to in your own head. Somehow my own and Hew's has become one. I don't have my own body so I was only able to communicate with Hew for along time. So he became my only friend for a long time. Then some jerk with his face kills me." Her eyes start to become watery as she talks about the incident.

"Oh hi Sun not anymore some one attacked me. Miss Alreenneesha and the Kitty man revived me before my body faded. Has Lang returned?" She tells Sun while trying not to cry.

Zilla wrote:

"I think so. I'm pretty new at this meeting new people. Umm something about me. Oh. I don't really have a body. This is just a created form that I can control. Though it really hurts when it's injured and it takes lot to make a new one. What else? Oh I have three four best friends. How about you?" Zilla responds as a nurse starts looking her over.

"I have never had a friend, I hope you are my first, I know that we seem odd to other matter forms. Being light. You said you have body's made for you, that seems intaresting. Is this not your true form."

You can see past her, he is not at all solid.

"I would like that." She replied with a smile. "Oh dear no. We're still not sure what my true form is. Only that I am connected to Hew. That jerk. In only the last month have I even had a body to use." She sighed as she thought of the mindscape she had been trapped within. "After being killed I was back there again. Till the kitty man and you healed me. Then I was able to return to my body once again. I guess that answers that question but not why they would kill me." Zilla looks over Alreenneesha. "Why is it I can see through you? I like it but why are you like that?"

"I think so. I'm pretty new at this meeting new people. Umm something about me. Oh. I don't really have a body. This is just a created form that I can control. Though it really hurts when it's injured and it takes lot to make a new one. What else? Oh I have three four best friends. How about you?" Zilla responds as a nurse starts looking her over.

"Oh you fixed my dress thank you. Umm Who are you though? You kinda look like me when I was tiny, but see throughy and... stuff." She looks at the beig slightly perplexed. Tough she seems to be getting past being killed and resurrected well one with ay empthy could tell she was only trying to distance herself from the memories.

"What? Why would you want to enter my mind? That is such a personal place. Besides it's not only mine. Where am I? Oh I'm Zilla." She responds while starting to look around. This action however is interuptd as she sees red on her dress and looks at the rest. "Oh no my dress!" She cries out before starting to ball again. "Why would someone kill and ruin my dress? It looked so cute on this body too."

"Wh-why would he. H-how could he. He wasn't sup--suppose to be here. He couldn't." The young girl starts balling into her bloody hands. Her tears rolling down her arm.

"I'm going to port us there, if that's OK."

He figures that if she ported in, they can be OK with porting out.
Unless she objects, he stands for a moment, and casts quickened Message with his amulet.
Melody, Arthur, Carl, Tryko'Sam, Kizmetz, and Vickory hear a brief message in Tybalt's voice saying.
"Really really sorry. Emergency. Be right back as soon as I can."
And then teleports Alreeneesha, himself, and the newly living girl to an empty bed in the infirmary.
When a nurse arrives, he relays his short experiences and differs to Alreeneesha for anything before the cafe.

Slowly Zilla's eye's open to see a blurry figure above her. She lets out a blood curdling scream. "Help! Hel.." Her words cut off by her rolling to the side and spewing out blood. Looking back her eyes now clearer she sees Tybalt and Alreeneesha. She reaches out weakly toward the two.

The door slowly opens and as expected lang is standing there.

Zilla, Thank you for the well wishes and all, but I had intended to share this time with all of my friends. Would allow me to count you among those friends?

Lang pauses a bit.

I guess what I am trying to say is, I am inviting you come along. but I can understand if you say no, but at least, you will know you are welcome.

Lang stands there awaiting Zilla's response still not entering the room.

Zilla places her hand on her forehead and rubs. "Things are confusing right now. I want to stay friends, but I think I just need to think things over. So I'll stay here with Ignance besides I don't want to leave her here alone." She tells him as she plays with her hair. "Just come back safe, ok."

Lang spends a minute or so outside Zilla's door going over in his mind if Zilla understood or not, if they can be friends or not.

Finally he turns around and knocks again on her door.
I wouldn't be right if I left her out

zilla, It's me, Lang again can I come back in? I have something to ask you

Zilla had been waking her room once Lang left trying to understand everything he wanted to keep his friendship but what she saw. Was it really what she thought? Zilla didn't know anymore what to think.

*knocking*

She looks back toward the door hearing Lang's voice coming from the other side. She started to call to him so let him in but she couldn't push the words out. Instead she placed her hand on her chest and breathed for a second. "Come in." She finally let out.

Midori Tsuyomi wrote:

"Maybe we should introduce Zilla-chan to Tanaka-senpai... or your sister and her friends?"

"Maybe...they tend to be pretty distracted by stuff like boyfriends...but I suppose it couldn't hurt. It's a good idea, Midori. Maybe that will help her feel a little less caught in between."

Oh yah go ahead pawn the drama queen off. ;P

Zilla wrote:

Shaking her head in disbelief she responds. Did you really think I would let anyone pick on her. Don't worry I'll be here for her. She is one of my besties."

Of course not..I mean...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.. Lang is just fumbling for the right words.

finally He just bows I'm sorry and he goes to leave. he is visibly upset with himself over this whole mess.

A sigh leaves Zilla's lips as Lang makes his way to the door. "Congratulation. Since I won't be there." She tells him in a soft tone.

Shaking her head in disbelief she responds. Did you really think I would let anyone pick on her. Don't worry I'll be here for her. She is one of my besties."

"Go ahead, I'm listening. Just don't expect me to say yes unconditionally." Her hands find their way to her hips as she leans her weight to one side.

Zilla looks at Lang as if she was trying to peer in to his vary soul. "So you talked to Hew already and he understood." Zilla stands up slowly. "I will trust that you are speaking the truth and that Hew knows what he's doing. Only because I don't want to lose ether Midori or your friendships."

"Yeah, I know why you to were draw together but you could have just tell us. Sure it would have hurt by did you two have to go sneaking around thinking Hew wouldn't noticed. Instead you got caught rolling around in the mud together. Your hands all over each other. I could see muddy prints of you hands." Zilla huffs as she steps back to her bed were she sits down.

takes a step back and crosses her arms. "I'm not going to promise I will listen, but you can talk." She states showing her (to put it nicely) lively attitude has returned. "I'm sure Sara will gladly listen." She huff as she turns around and walks over to her bed and sits acting like she is to tear his words apart. Her mind was so full of questions she knew she would listen but she was so nervous she had to hide her feelings anyway she could.

Zilla looks back toward that door to her room as she hears the knock. "Huh I thought Ignance would just come in." she shrugs just before hopping to he feet. Slowly she saunters over to the door. She opens the door asking. "Ignance why didn't you just come in. Oh!" She ends seeing Lang.

Zilla wrote:

Zilla nods remembering she did. "I did mean it. I haven't ever been as happy as when we all became friends. I just don't want to be hurt again but I don't want to be lonely anymore ether. No matter what I do there's a chance of being hurt." Her eyes start to tear up as she ends.

"I'll tell you what my mom told me after....well, after. She said that bad things happen, and so do good things, but if you keep yourself locked away then you won't get to experience either, and if you miss all of them someday you'll regret not having really lived. I didn't listen to her for a long time. Until Lang convinced me to come out of my sewing room....and then the rest of you...."

"The point is that if you only worry about avoiding pain you miss all the good stuff."

Zilla nods to Ignace as she finishes her quote. "Your right I missed so much while trapped in Hew's mind. I don't want to imprison my self. Ignace you are just so smart." Zilla reaches out toward Ignace to pull her in to the hug with Sara. "I love you girls."

Zilla wrote:

She sniffles slightly. "I don't really know. That's why I came here. I couldn't think of anywhere else to go. I don't even know if having friends is worth getting hurt over anymore." Zilla's start watering as she speaks. Each word seeming to become heavier for her to say. "Sara would you mind if I got a hug. I think I need one." Zilla continues use sure of what to say anymore or how to explain things to her.

After Sara gives Zilla a hug, Ignace just stood there looking uncertain.

"D-didn't you just finish telling me that it was worth the risks? Having friends? Did you not mean it?" she asked in a small, scared voice.

Zilla nods remembering she did. "I did mean it. I haven't ever been as happy as when we all became friends. I just don't want to be hurt again but I don't want to be lonely anymore ether. No matter what I do there's a chance of being hurt." Her eyes start to tear up as she ends.

Ok I'm so much better at knowing what to say as ADD Zilla than hysteric for long periods Zilla. :P

Zilla wrote:

"I don't think I want to talk about it right now." She hesitantly tells Ignace, unsure of how to even put any of what happened. "I think I just should try doing something else." She explains while looking at the floor feeling bad about lying to her friends.

"Okay. If you change your mind, I'm here and I'll listen to any problems you might have."

"What would you like to do instead?" Ignace was awkward but sincere, unsure of exactly how she was supposed to act in this situation.

She sniffles slightly. "I don't really know. That's why I came here. I couldn't think of anywhere else to go. I don't even know if having friends is worth getting hurt over anymore." Zilla's start watering as she speaks. Each word seeming to become heavier for her to say. "Sara would you mind if I got a hug. I think I need one." Zilla continues use sure of what to say anymore or how to explain things to her.

Zilla wrote:

Hearing the two girls Zilla cut her tears and wipes her eyes. Slowly she stood and made her way to the door. "Yah I'm fine I stubbed my toe." She opened the door for the two. I'm sorry I forgot to come back by."

Re-rolling for you on account of a humorous typo. :)

Zilla's bluff: 1d20+3

Ignace's sense motive: 1d20

"Were you not able to find Midori? Or did you guys have a fight? Sometimes that happens with me and my sister...I mean we love each other and all, but we fight too and I often cry afterwards," she said, trying in her own awkward way to figure out what had happened. Nobody cried that much over a stubbed toe.

"I don't think I want to talk about it right now." She hesitantly tells Ignace, unsure of how to even put any of what happened. "I think I just should try doing something else." She explains while looking at the floor feeling bad about lying to her friends.

Hearing the two girls Zilla cut her tears and wipes her eyes. Slowly she stood and made her way to the door. "Yah I'm fine I stubbed my toe." bluff: 1d208 + 3 ⇒ (96) + 3 = 99 She opened the door for the two. I'm sorry I forgot to come back by."

Sara and Bee wrote:

"Ya. Maybe we should find Zilla first since she was here earlier?"

She sets Cariban on top of her head and begins with Ignace out to the hallway.
"I think maybe the Caribans should have different names. So I can talk about you different. Since old Cariban was Cariban first, I think that one should be Cariban. New Cariban that talks to other people, do you have another name you would like?"

"Okay, that makes sense. Zilla first," she says putting her hand on the wall and thinking of Zilla.

"Wait, there are two Caribans? This is so confusing..."

The arrows will lead the two young girls to Zilla and Hew's room. The door is closed but from with in they can hear Zilla crying.

Dom Waverider wrote:

For the next few minuets I have it beat. I will not take long for me to lose it.

I'm just lucky enough currently that no one is waiting on a post fromme. Unless I missed something.

Unless you wanna crash the Midori party. She just came out of the shower after all. What would Zilla think *gasp*!

Sorry Lang, I actually thought your suggestion was a joke. xD

Besides, I might have Midori go looking for Kitty (and immediately fail). ;P

Lol. Your on to me! Nah I think I have a much better idea about how to get them to talk. Just waiting for a good set up for it.

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the term master denotes male gender
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mistress denote female
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oh wait... you were joking... rigt

Yes I was joking and making reference to what it is used for today.

Hint: Leather and whips. "Princess, Princess, Princess!"

Hmm... Meg have idea!

Don't tempt me. :D

I am not that kind of girl Grim!

*looks away from Grim with an angry expression and arms crossed.*

frowns, then moves to hug her "I still care"

Noticing what Grim was doing she raises her arm to bock his path to her. She whisper to him then she looks away embarrassed. "What are you doing? Just Just stay back for now. I don't know who I can trust anymore. You act all sweet and wonderful but what do you really want?" She takes a few steps away. "I've got to go." She tells him before rushing off, toward the school.

just sits there quiet for a minute or two "I don't know what to tell you.... I don't think there really is any one answer to this... I'm sorry, and for what it's worth I think midori is too"

Zilla wipes the tears from her face. "I should go. I don't know what to do but Sara and Ignace will be worried if I'm gone any longer. Maybe I should just tell them I'm feeling ill and go back to my room. Of course that's only if they even really care. I don't even know if anyone really cares anymore. Maybe Hew hasn't ever really cared I just thought he didn't." She sighed unsure of anything anymore.

Zilla's waiting on Grim I believe. Unless I missed one, but I will be away for a good while today so no hurry.

Zilla wrote:

Grim Jr. wrote:

"I'm pretty sure they were just playing in the mud.... lang likes ignace right?... and did she ever say she liked hew to begin with?"

Quickly Zilla turns to face Grim. "Lang is hurt right now it would be easier now to come in, be the sympathetic person and get him to feel a connection. Paying in the mud I saw there hand prints all over each other. I might not of seen them kiss but there was plenty of close contact that it was the next step if not." Zilla only shakes her head slightly as if Grim wasn't getting it. "She also lead him on and never just told him she wasn't interested. Sure I wouldn't have minded if it was anyone else, but it's Hew and she knows he's my only family."

"maybe she was afraid of hurting him?" he pauses "look I like her too, feels a little like my heart's being wrenched out with a spoon, but I'm not the one on the ground crying, stuff happens,"

"I trusted her. Do you know how are that is for me to do? Ever since I can remember people have tried to get close to Hew so they could torture us, in the name of discovery. I thought here I could allow someone to be close to us, that wouldn't hurt us. I guess I was wrong." She tell Grim with tears rolling down her cheeks. He cloths were caked in mud from the ground allowing her some modesty.

"I'm pretty sure they were just playing in the mud.... lang likes ignace right?... and did she ever say she liked hew to begin with?"

Quickly Zilla turns to face Grim. "Lang is hurt right now it would be easier now to come in, be the sympathetic person and get him to feel a connection. Paying in the mud I saw there hand prints all over each other. I might not of seen them kiss but there was plenty of close contact that it was the next step if not." Zilla only shakes her head slightly as if Grim wasn't getting it. "She also lead him on and never just told him she wasn't interested. Sure I wouldn't have minded if it was anyone else, but it's Hew and she knows he's my only family."

Grim sits down next to the sobbing zillia but doesn't say anything.

As Grim sits down Zilla next to her. She pulls away slightly, showing a slight distrust of others. Her sobs can still be heard only muffled slightly by her arm. "Why would she not have told Hew that she wasn't interested, before moving in on another guy."

Zilla doesn't even look bac at grim in stead just keeps her face buried in her arms. With a muffled voice she cries. "Just leave me alone." Her sobs can be heard through arms.

"what's wrong Zilla?"

"Go away!" She calls while waving her arms in a sporadic shooing motion. "Just leave me alone!" She continues followed by more sobs.

Grim soon lands next to her

"Hey" he says quietly

"Her cloth have become completely transparent now. If she was to turn around Grim would be able to see her everything. In a small frightened voice Grim hears her reply. "Go away, you'll just hurt Hew and I too."

The rain may have stopped now but a salty down pour still fell to the grass floor. Avalon was far from sight as she lay at the foot of a tree. Sobbing in to her hands she shivered from the cold air hitting her soaked body. All around her was a strange silence. The only other noise was a fast moving river that had cut her run short.

She ran of in random direction. Probably not toward the school as her trust in everything is broken, currently. I would roll a dice for direction but I don't really think that matters to much. Distance she has gotten can vary.

Hew in all this is oblivious, so I wonder how he will react. If Zilla was to talk to him first or get an explanation first.

Lang stops and is silent for a moment thinking about what zilla said. he looks over to Midori then at himself. there is a look of shock all over himself. Zilla you thought we...that Midori and I... he tries to keep from laughing, knowing this is serious.

Lang goes over to Zilla, Zilla, we were not kissing. in fact, we never kissed. I know where Midori's heart is, I would never allow her, or myself, to betray that. I just needed a shoulder to lean on, some kind words. Zilla, I just needed a friend. just like Ignace needed in you.

Lang puts a hand on her shoulder Please Zilla, you have to believe me, believe in us.

"Don't lie I know what I saw. I thought Hew and I could trust you both but this. Why would you do this?" Zilla chokes out while holding back tears. Quickly she drops into a sprint out into the rain.