I just added up everything in my shopping cart and wishlist and it totaled over $500 US. Knowing that some months I can't even afford one thing on the list really, really sucks.
And then, depression set in.
The sad thing is, you never will catch up. Take it from someone who has tried to keep up himself, just ignore the depression and enjoy what you can get. ;-)
I definitely empathize with your plight. That's a pretty common realization for me too.
I hear ya, friend. I've been on austerity since...forever.
What do you have on your list?
Pathfinder Society scenarios are a whopping $4!
More than half are 3PP products averaging about $3.99 each. Prices go up from there. The most expensive thing on the list now is the upcoming "Ultimate Campaign" book.
I live on a tiny fixed disability income. Hell, I sometimes feel guilty for buying a "Bullet Points" .pdf at a $1 apiece.
In my entire life I've never been able to afford everything I want. As a kid I grew up in low income family in the North of England (not a fun place to be) and as an adult, while I've managed to stay out of debt bar student loans, I've also not got much disposable income (and four kids to spend it on).
But it's OK. I just have to prioritize what I can only buy, work out how to make what I can make (steampunk multishot cane nerf gun? No problem!) and for the rest, well, I make do without or try and 'hint' my richer relatives should check my wishlists for present suggestions. Or just give me cash. I like cash.
Thanks, Eric. That's a good idea. I'll send out some feelers on that. I think I'll write up one on Dread Fox's Swordmaster first.
Thanks, Eric. That's a good idea. I'll send out some feelers on that. I think I'll write up one on Dread Fox's Swordmaster first.
It'll be next week before I get the review up. Real life just kicked in my door without a warrant and dragged me screaming into the street. But as a "preview", this is a great class!
Well, there a few different things. The first being a back injury I suffered working in a soybean bagging plant in early 1994, that eventually worsened to the point that I was unable to walk due to sciatica and had to have surgery. Then I was in a really bad auto accident in January 2005 and that partially separated my pectoral muscles from my sternum and rib cage and broke my left leg in two places. I have rods and plates in it now, and spent nearly 11 months learning to walk on it again because the pain in my chest made it almost impossible to bear my weight on crutches. Both it and my back are constantly in pain to a lesser or greater degree. It varies. The surgeries on my leg have also caused permanent neuropathy in that leg and foot, so my nerve endings send mixed signals when I walk, so I stumble and fall like a drunk because my foot tells my brain one thing and then does its own thing.
The wreck led to PTSD, which led to major anxiety and treatment resistant clinical depression. I was fired from my last job in February 2007 because I was unable to perform adequately due to those. My behavior became pretty erratic and my emotional state became very unpredictable. I'm on a battery of meds that really do very little to keep my depression and anxiety under control, but it's better with them than without. I'm also showing signs of becoming increasingly agoraphobic, at least that's what my therapist has tells me.
So, there ya go! And for the record, I don't mind if people ask me about these things. They're part of who I am now, and in the anonymous world of the innawebz, I'll likely never run into anyone here and they won't be afraid to strike up a conversation with a crazy person! LOL
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Icyshadow / Rynjin - look a cute puppy.
Back to the matter at hand - that's a hell of an unfortunate turn of events DungeonmasterCal. Here's hoping that you can whittle down the wishlist by turning your hand at a few reviews :)
@Rynjin
And I thought I was the pessimist around here. You've basically given up, judging from that wording. I could be wrong, of course.
@Mark Sweetman
Thanks, but I've seen cuter ones. And yeah, hopefully Cal gets the money from somewhere. Even though we already know where most of it is nowadays...
Guys, thanks for the kind wishes and thoughts, but this thread wasn't about getting cash or free goods. I was just ranting. Everyone I know in real life had gotten tired of hearing it so I thought I would inflict it on others! LOL
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Hey, everyone needs a place to vent/rant/whatever every once in a while.
Might as well whine to people who are likely to listen and then derail the conversation into something only tangentially related. ;)
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It is good that people with depressions, anxiety disorders, and other psychiatric disorders talk about it. It is the only way people will start to understand. Thank you, DM Cal. I wish you the best regarding the pain and other problems.
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At least you're not into Hero System, what with the core rulebook over $100.
I mean COME ON.
But there are still very generous folks out there. They sometimes show up when you least expect them.
Well, there a few different things. The first being a back injury I suffered working in a soybean bagging plant in early 1994, that eventually worsened to the point that I was unable to walk due to sciatica and had to have surgery. Then I was in a really bad auto accident in January 2005 and that partially separated my pectoral muscles from my sternum and rib cage and broke my left leg in two places. I have rods and plates in it now, and spent nearly 11 months learning to walk on it again because the pain in my chest made it almost impossible to bear my weight on crutches. Both it and my back are constantly in pain to a lesser or greater degree. It varies. The surgeries on my leg have also caused permanent neuropathy in that leg and foot, so my nerve endings send mixed signals when I walk, so I stumble and fall like a drunk because my foot tells my brain one thing and then does its own thing.
The wreck led to PTSD, which led to major anxiety and treatment resistant clinical depression. I was fired from my last job in February 2007 because I was unable to perform adequately due to those. My behavior became pretty erratic and my emotional state became very unpredictable. I'm on a battery of meds that really do very little to keep my depression and anxiety under control, but it's better with them than without. I'm also showing signs of becoming increasingly agoraphobic, at least that's what my therapist has tells me.
I, um... I got a papercut once.
Geeze. Good luck with everything. :(
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I got a papercut just the other day. I whined about that more than my leg for most of that day... lol
I got a papercut just the other day. I whined about that more than my leg for most of that day... lol
Papercuts are so damn itchy. *shrugs*
My perspective is things will never be so bad as long as I can afford rice and have people that will talk to me.
I got a papercut just the other day. I whined about that more than my leg for most of that day... lolPapercuts are so damn itchy. *shrugs*
When I was 15 years old, our teacher was handing out our biology exams. The teacher called out my name and when I picked up my exam and turned around, I accidentally gave her a paper cut in the eye. Good thing the cut was mostly on the eyelid rather than the eyeball, but it looked mighty painful.
I felt really bad about it and baked her a cake next week as an apology. It looked and tasted pretty bad, apparently, but she was pretty cool about the accident, telling me that "Good thing you didn't cut the whole thing. Imagine trying to match the shoes with the colour of the eyepatch!".
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and turned around, I accidentally gave her a paper cut in the eye.
You just made my soul cringe.
You just made my soul cringe.
and turned around, I accidentally gave her a paper cut in the eye.
Seconded.
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Mine too. I was present when my godfather's daughter stuck her fork in his eye. He is ok now, but it was terrible to behold him getting up all quiet and calling the ambulance all the while the fork sticking out of his face. I still shudder when i remember that.
He is ok now, she actually didn't damage anything vital and he can see again.
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@Hama--
Ok, I'm rolling on the floor and screaming in sympathetic fear and pain for your godfather...
@TOZ and Nym, thanks for the good vibes!
Cal, you're pretty strong to live with all of that. I whine about my bum knees, but I know I'm lucky to be as whole and healthy as I am at thirty with twelve years of military service. Keep fighting the good fight.Mos
Mos? I don't know what that is... except the first half of the name of a spaceport on Tattooine.
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Mos? I don't know what that is... except the first half of the name of a spaceport on Tattooine.Cal, you're pretty strong to live with all of that. I whine about my bum knees, but I know I'm lucky to be as whole and healthy as I am at thirty with twelve years of military service. Keep fighting the good fight.Mos
Military Occupational Speciality. He's asking what my job was.
55/89B Ammunition Specialist for 8 years, 25B Information Technology Specialist for 4.
Ah...ya know, if I'd have thought about it for another minute I would have probably realized that. When my brother was in the navy, his MOS was originally slated to be a flagman on an aircraft carrier. At the last minute someone finally looked at his medical records (after he had told them repeatedly to do so)and they realized he was both color blind and dyslexic. That could have been tragically silly.
At least you're not into Hero System, what with the core rulebook over $100.
I mean COME ON.
The current core rulebook (Champions Complete) is on amazon for 36 bucks.
The HERO System Core rulebook book 1 is out of print, and has been for a while.
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And as I love 3rd party stuff, I am in the same boat as the OP. Too much good stuff that I want.
That could have been tragically silly."Who made that man a gunner?" :)
This is exactly what I expected it to be. Good man. Well played. =)
Classic scene.