Flagging down a server, he asked, "Excuse me, what do you have to eat here?"
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Ieyasu bows to Drago and Yulia, handing them two sheets of paper. "I have made menus. I thought it would be easier than running through the same speech constantly. What would you like to drink?"
Guiding her back to the room she coaxes her to lie down, sitting on the edge of the bed beside her. ”What’s wrong?” she asks gently resting her hand on Arista’s back between her wings.
She sighs a little and wipes her face with the sleeve of her sleep set, "There's just....it's a lot of different stuff." She says, not sure if she can get into it again without breaking down into tears all over again. Taking a deep breath she says while her voice shakes slightly, "I don't really think about it a lot because we've been so busy fighting one evil right after another....but it just sorta...creeps up on me ya know? Like now...when we're all able to relax for the few seconds before we have to go charging off into battle again? You just...you have more time to notice things...think about things." Turning over in the bed so she can look up at Sadhana she takes another breath, "I know I'm not alone...not really, but sometimes...it kind of feels like I am. Now I'm pregnant and going to have a baby while I already somehow managed to end up with a toddler back home....and I just...I don't want to feel like I'm doing it by myself. Then there's that whole business about Theon that I feel like I have no right thinking about right now with everything going on...but I want my family back Sadhana....I hate that they were taken from me and I want them back." She finishes before starting to cry again.
Laughing at Rajni's colorful description and giving Elena a wink, she waves her hands around Rajni while humming a little tune and swaying rhythmically to is as the dirt, sweat and grime is evaporated off of Rajni’s body leaving a fresh scent reminiscent of the great outdoors.
Getting her sobbing under control she says, "I thought...I thought having him with me like this would make things better and....and maybe I wouldn't miss him so much....but....it just makes it more....difficult because he's right here and I still feel like I'm alone. He doesn't talk to me about anything unless it's something important to him....or like something he wants and when I do talk to him....half the time it feels like he's not even paying attention to me...like he's totally distracted. I know he has had a lot to deal with....but so have I and I....I love him....but I need to be his partner....not something he keeps around for when he wants me." Looking up again she yawns, "Does that make sense? I don't even know what I'm feeling half the time anymore and I don't know if it's everything that's going on, or my hormones, or just everything but I kinda feel like I'm going a little insane." She says as the emotional toll of everything seems to drain her. It seems as if her body can't decide between falling back asleep and completely falling apart.
Sadhana lets out a quiet sigh as she hears all of the things that have been weighing down on someone who’d become a sister to her. No one should have to deal with all of that at once, let a lone while pregnant.
”I understand. I know what you mean about things creeping up when you don’t have time to focus on them in the moment.” she says comforting Arista as she cries. ”I know that you understand we’re here for you, but you’re not wrong or selfish to feel like you should be able to expect more than that.” she says trying to keep the rising anger out of her voice.
Since the day they’d met Arista was the most genuinely, inherently good person she knew, utterly selfless and giving. More than anyone she knew, herself included, Arista deserved happiness. After losing everyone she’d ever loved, she deserved the love and support of someone who would never let her feel alone again.
Though their situations were different, she understood the damage loneliness could do, it was one of the things that cut Clara the deepest. The idea that even right next to Alethiro rather than hundreds of miles away, Arista felt that loneliness, while being at the frontline of a battle to save everyone and everything around her……the magus takes a slow deep breath, hiding the fact that she was clenching her fist.
She’d notices his…inattentiveness, but hadn’t felt like she needed to mention it or say anything. Until now. Watching her suffer like this, it was almost unbearable. ”You’re not insane, not at all. It makes perfect sense and you deserve to feel like you have the support of the person who’s supposed to share your life.”
Never the most diplomatic person, Sadhana nevertheless tries to keep her tone level and comforting, but her eyes flash with a fury that any who’s witnessed someone she cared about hurt knew well.
Not knowing what else to do she puts her arms around her friend, her sister and holds on as she feels like her whole world is falling out from under her, "What am I supposed to do Sadhana? Rhadaya said I should talk to him and not be all gentle about it and stuff. I just....I don't want to hurt him or make him....I don't know....I don't want to make him feel like a horrible person when I knew that he had issues he was dealing with when I asked him to marry me. I made a life long promise to him...I can't just....just turn my back on that. I can't just give up on him Sadhana....I just don't know what to do, but I don't want to lose him." She says as she chokes back more sobs.
"It can probably wait until tomorrow, I think we're pretty safe here with so many people around. Then we can look around and see if anyone can spare some spell components. Does that sound alright?" Fae asks, not wanting to interrupt Arista's beauty sleep with something that could wait until later.
"Sounds good. I think there are a few other things you might need anyway. Like a spare set of clothes, maybe a bedroll for when we have to make camp outside and a few other things perhaps." Cyna answers.
”You mean you don’t want to hurt him? Like he’s been hurting you all this time?” Sādhanā responds. ”Whether he knows it or not, you’ve been going through emotional torture. If you don’t say anything it will only get worse. If you don’t let someone know what they’re doing to you, there’s no inclination to stop doing it. If you tell them and they continue…..well that tells you all you need to know about them. You need to say something before the pain turns to hate, because trust me it will one day if you leave things as they are.”
She nods as she cries against Sadhana, "I know....I don't want to hate him either. I don't like...feeling this way. I just...I can't talk to him about it right now. We can't afford the distraction with not knowing what we may be facing tomorrow. I will talk to him though...okay? I'm just....I feel so tired and I don't have it in me right now to deal with it. I just...I just don't and I need to stay focused until after this next fight. I'm sorry....I didn't know it was bothering me this much and I really didn't mean to drag other people into it. I feel like...like I'm just turning into a big ol' blubbery mess that doesn't know how to do anything except cry all the time."
Alethiro kept his back to Yerna as he did some of the dishes. And silently, he shed a few tears. What can I do? I can't lose her. He thought.
Drying some of Arista's tears, Sādhanā gives her a gentle smile. "Hey, everyone's entitled to being a blubbery mess at some point. You pulled me back from the brink of insanity when I thought I'd lost Ylrhea. I'm always here for you, no dragging required."
She grins for a moment"Besides, crying's probably healthier than what I do. I tend to deal with negative emotions by looking for something to hit."
Sitting up a little bit she puts her arms around Sadhana while sniffling, "Thank you. We just gotta save Lysse, save Sienna, and then I can deal with other issues. I'll have to think about Theon later....there's only so much I can deal with at one time. Know what I mean?" She says sounding a little calmer and sleepy again. Letting go of Sadhana she lies back down as wipes her face one more time, "I'm okay....I'm just feeling a little tired now. I guess feeling all this stuff is just a little draining huh?"
"What troubles you?" Yerna asks Alethiro. "You clearly didn't hear me when I told you that I was fine doing the dishes alone. Now, you are hunched over and silent."
She smiles as Ieyasu returns with their drinks. "I believe we are ready to order. I'll have the sweet and sour pork."
"Okay, but at some point you gotta put yourself first okay? I'm holding you to it." Sādhanā says placing a hand on Arista's shoulder.