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Mr Shiny, I don’t know how to help you, but I can tell you that from all I can see you are a cool person and most importantly a good person. Everyone has issues; some people get them diagnosed and take medication or whatever, other people just go through their lives and deal with things however they can.
There’s nothing wrong with you (no more so than is wrong with anyone else), you seem like you just have a lot of people in your life who are bad for you. Don’t listen to them, don’t care what they think or what they say; there is no time in life for negative people. Live your life, do what you think is right and best, don’t listen to the haters and you will do all right.
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Sorry to hear your news Taig, and yours too Bitter Thorn.Thanks.
I never had to do something like that, but I sat with my cat when I was a teenager as he died of a snakebite. The only time I ever cried when someone I knew died.
Sorry to hear your news Taig, and yours too Bitter Thorn.Thanks.I never had to do something like that, but I sat with my cat when I was a teenager as he died of a snakebite. The only time I ever cried when someone I knew died.
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We all grieve differently; I don't think there is a wrong way until you hurt someone else.
*bwaaaas massively about all the sucktitude that exists ... then is glad and grateful that life has not quite yet gone the route of Total Sucktitude ... yet ...
yeah, me too. Meditation is helping me a lot; you might try it. Two kinds:
Deep meditation.
This is where you sit in a comfortable position; keep your eyes closed; dont fall asleep; focus your breathing so it is regulated deep breathing. I like to start by putting my first finger each hand on the spot right between my eyebrows; take your second finger of one hand; close one nostril; breath in or out; then release that nostril; then repeat with other hand; close the other nostril; do this about 10 time; will help you focus on breathing. Put your arms down in a confortable spot. Then concentrate your minds eye on the spot between your eyebrows; breath and watch (your eyes are closed) with your minds eyes. In the first 20 minutes; your body will complain as it settles in. concentrate on the spot between your eyebrows. This 20 minutes is where you separate the mind that is you from the brain which is just a monitor device for your body; your brain sends all these signals; but they just are; so concentrate on your minds eye between your eyebrows and regulate your breathing and stay with it; your brain signals will calm down and your body will be much more relaxed and peaceful.
ok; next 20 minutes; this is where you start getting thoughts and images scroll through your minds eye; this is where you find out who you are and what your thinking. The idea is that your mind/brain/you is like an untrained monkey that jumps around getting into all kinds of trouble; you must train your mind; your monkey; so just watch the images; dont play with them; dont follow them; be the observer.
Ok; hte next 20 minutes; your in a state of calm; with ocassional brain and mind signals; but much much more peaceful; end after 20 minutes but you could stay in this position for hours if you wanted visions or like that. but 20 minutes is good to restore your balance and bring peace. This will give you a new center, a baseline, so that when you are in your day living; you can feel the difference and know when you getting out of balance due to your environment.
The second technique is called Mindfullness. Use it when your in the thick of loosing your cool or acting out or getting tense; hyper; whatever. Once you have done the first long meditation; you know what it feels to be in a good place; so when your loosing it you can do mindfullness. This is done with your eyes open; you focus on one object; interesting thing about the eyes; when you focus on one object your field of vision can be cut down to as low as about 10 degrees. So regulate your breathing; focus on an object and try to notice every detail about it; any thing will do; a wall; a stone; a piece of trash. Look for every texture; shade; shadow; color; pattern to the exclusion of everything else; you body should relax after just a couple minutes and you should feel much calmer. It is a bit like pushing the reset button; you can do it as much as you need.
Anyway; hope this helps anyone you who decide to give it a try; is working for me to deal with my issues; train my monkey and learn about myself.
many things still have great suckage; they just dont provoke such extreme emotions anymore and become easier to deal with and overcome.
I have to kill my friend soon. Sometimes responsibility truly sucks.
He's been a good friend.
I'm sorry man. That's hard. You gave him many good years, and through you he recieved a life that was better than some humans experience. You are setting him free into the happy hunting grounds, and I'm sure he would thank you if he could.
I'm sorry man. That's hard. You gave him many good years, and through you he recieved a life that was better than some humans experience. You are setting him free into the happy hunting grounds, and I'm sure he would thank you if he could.I have to kill my friend soon. Sometimes responsibility truly sucks.
He's been a good friend.
Thank you.
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Somehow my PC crashed yesterday. After a few hour of trying to repair / reinstall windows, just to see the installer autoreset every time I finally had to format my harddrive and make a new windows installation, thus loosing much of my work files from the last weeks (not enough space on my usb storage devices, my dvd-ram died a few weeks ago and I couldn't afford a new one...).
Pc works fine now, but half of my ram-space seems to be gpne for good
I love Computers, unfortunatly that is NOT a mutual feeling...
Thank you.I'm sorry man. That's hard. You gave him many good years, and through you he recieved a life that was better than some humans experience. You are setting him free into the happy hunting grounds, and I'm sure he would thank you if he could.I have to kill my friend soon. Sometimes responsibility truly sucks.
He's been a good friend.
<Lifts a bevvy in honor of Max.>
I love dogs. Haven't had one since my Golden Retriever died in 88.
Got stung by a bee yesterday. Spent a good 10-15 minutes trying to "be a man" and shake it off. Didn't work. Used my epi pen, had a seizure and I don't remember a good half hour of my day yesterday.
Absolutly f&#%(@! wonderful.
@Thorn: Sorry about your buddy. :(
I'd rather have you here seizing due to an epi than as a macho, unflinching corpse.
I'd rather have you here seizing due to an epi than as a macho, unflinching corpse.Got stung by a bee yesterday. Spent a good 10-15 minutes trying to "be a man" and shake it off. Didn't work. Used my epi pen, had a seizure and I don't remember a good half hour of my day yesterday.
Absolutly f&#%(@! wonderful.
@Thorn: Sorry about your buddy. :(
+1
+1I'd rather have you here seizing due to an epi than as a macho, unflinching corpse.Got stung by a bee yesterday. Spent a good 10-15 minutes trying to "be a man" and shake it off. Didn't work. Used my epi pen, had a seizure and I don't remember a good half hour of my day yesterday.
Absolutly f&#%(@! wonderful.
@Thorn: Sorry about your buddy. :(
+2
Thank you.I'm sorry man. That's hard. You gave him many good years, and through you he recieved a life that was better than some humans experience. You are setting him free into the happy hunting grounds, and I'm sure he would thank you if he could.I have to kill my friend soon. Sometimes responsibility truly sucks.
He's been a good friend.
<Lifts a bevvy in honor of Max.>
I love dogs. Haven't had one since my Golden Retriever died in 88.
I'm really struggling with when to put him down. We've been fighting pain control issues for his hips and some wound maintenance, and I really thought I would have to put him down this week, but the wound he licked onto his hip has shown dramatic improvement and his mobility has improved. He actually ran to the fence to bark at something. He hasn't done that in weeks. I really don't know what triggered his resurgence either the dosage on his meds has been maxed out for months, and we haven't changed his diet, but I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth.
The poison ivy on my left arm has made me cranky. I hate not having full range of movement due to swelling, let alone the pus. Yuck.
Ha. Been to one, they want money and more money.My bad tooth is killing me again.I have a hammer and a chisel.
I'll give you my other epi pen and we'll make a night out of it.
:P
Go to a dentist. Loves ya.
I can tell you from personal experience that tooth infections are nasty, nasty business - and they can turn life threatening within a few days if you are not careful.
If at all possible, check out any local dental schools - they often offer a waiting list with cheap or free extractions. Be very attentive to any antibiotics that you are prescribed as well.
If you're not careful about your chompers, you'll end up like me - gumming your snacks at the game. :)
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Ha. Been to one, they want money and more money.My bad tooth is killing me again.I have a hammer and a chisel.
I'll give you my other epi pen and we'll make a night out of it.
:P
Go to a dentist. Loves ya.
I can tell you from personal experience that tooth infections are nasty, nasty business - and they can turn life threatening within a few days if you are not careful.
If at all possible, check out any local dental schools - they often offer a waiting list with cheap or free extractions. Be very attentive to any antibiotics that you are prescribed as well.
If you're not careful about your chompers, you'll end up like me - gumming your snacks at the game. :)
No local dental schools, hence the exorbitant prices.
There was a backed up drain in the basement again, leading to yet another flood which meant yet another weekend with intermittent (at best) water. And now we've got water back, even hot water, but the whole building smells like a port a potty and maintenance doesn't know how long it's gonna take to get things cleaned up. I've got a car deodorant thingy hanging on my front door and scented candles burning throughout the apartment, but I can still smell sewage. :(
And all this because my neighbors can't seem to wrap their heads around the idea that cooking grease should not be poured down the drain. :/
My very lovely 1988 Honda Accord died an ignominous death of electrical system failure. I can't afford to repair or replace her.
Rent is increasing and I'm still living in a hotel.
~winces~ Ouch! I am so sorry to hear that.
I went to vote today, I was second in line. There were only 4 people there......
How sad
My very lovely 1988 Honda Accord died an ignominous death of electrical system failure. I can't afford to repair or replace her.
Rent is increasing and I'm still living in a hotel.
It's been a while since I've seen you on the boards, I was wondering what happened. I'm sorry to hear things aren't looking up.
My very lovely 1988 Honda Accord died an ignominous death of electrical system failure. I can't afford to repair or replace her.
Rent is increasing and I'm still living in a hotel.
:(
I'm sorry that things suck so much right now.
There was a backed up drain in the basement again, leading to yet another flood which meant yet another weekend with intermittent (at best) water. And now we've got water back, even hot water, but the whole building smells like a port a potty and maintenance doesn't know how long it's gonna take to get things cleaned up. I've got a car deodorant thingy hanging on my front door and scented candles burning throughout the apartment, but I can still smell sewage. :(
And all this because my neighbors can't seem to wrap their heads around the idea that cooking grease should not be poured down the drain. :/
*glug-glug-glug*
Whut? The grease makes it easier fer the coffee grounds and egg-shells to get by the wadded paper towels.
There was a backed up drain in the basement again, leading to yet another flood which meant yet another weekend with intermittent (at best) water. And now we've got water back, even hot water, but the whole building smells like a port a potty and maintenance doesn't know how long it's gonna take to get things cleaned up. I've got a car deodorant thingy hanging on my front door and scented candles burning throughout the apartment, but I can still smell sewage. :(
And all this because my neighbors can't seem to wrap their heads around the idea that cooking grease should not be poured down the drain. :/
Aiyaiyai...I'm sorry. I've been in that situation before(once I think I was even the culprit), and I know how much that sucks.
Burst water pipe at work. My job today was drying off computers and equipment as best I could. Tomorrow I get to test to see if they still work.
Burst water pipe at work. My job today was drying off computers and equipment as best I could. Tomorrow I get to test to see if they still work.
Yowch! I hope there was little or no damage to the equipment.
Rice, lots and lots of rice.
I haz a bukkit of it.
Well, from what I can tell, my experience at Syracuse University is looking to be no better than my experience at SCAD. Wonderful.
Ouch! Sorry to hear that!
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Yeah, I've just been busy and/or socially awkward.
I'm "on" all day at work, and dealing with people has just become harder over time. I've missed the boards and will do a bit more surfing as I have the spoons.
Which brings me to the next thing that sucks.
I think my mental health is slipping again, and I may have to restart on psych meds before I get 5150'd again.
Specifically, I'm slipping back into audiovisual hallucinations that drive a paranoid state. Which cascades to insomnia. Which feeds the beast.
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*mutters and slinks back off to the LOVERLY hold music at her job*
Yeah, I've just been busy and/or socially awkward.
Random question for you, Mikhaila: is there an in-joke with the Kobold Chorus and your Beloved Spouse [quickened silence on the Chorus so he can finish his question] that you would be willing to share, or have I missed it already somewhere?
Something inside my computer has shorted. I now have a laptop with a finicky cord and no battery. I've got the laptop tilted weirdly and the cord held at the perfect angle to keep it going.
But I have to keep it going. It's all I have between me and having to strangle one of my flatmates for the truly idiotic shouting rants he has with himself. He's a vacuum cleaner salesman, a field straight out of 1950s middle America. And he's got all the racial sensitivities of that era.
Something inside my computer has shorted. I now have a laptop with a finicky cord and no battery. I've got the laptop tilted weirdly and the cord held at the perfect angle to keep it going.
But I have to keep it going. It's all I have between me and having to strangle one of my flatmates for the truly idiotic shouting rants he has with himself. He's a vacuum cleaner salesman, a field straight out of 1950s middle America. And he's got all the racial sensitivities of that era.
A vaccuum cleaner salesman? REALLY?
That's just odd.
Something inside my computer has shorted. I now have a laptop with a finicky cord and no battery. I've got the laptop tilted weirdly and the cord held at the perfect angle to keep it going.
But I have to keep it going. It's all I have between me and having to strangle one of my flatmates for the truly idiotic shouting rants he has with himself. He's a vacuum cleaner salesman, a field straight out of 1950s middle America. And he's got all the racial sensitivities of that era.
A vaccuum cleaner salesman? REALLY?
That's just odd.
Door-to-door, too. Just in case you thought no one did that anymore. I certainly thought that.
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Yeah, I've just been busy and/or socially awkward.Random question for you, Mikhaila: is there an in-joke with the Kobold Chorus and your Beloved Spouse [quickened silence on the Chorus so he can finish his question] that you would be willing to share, or have I missed it already somewhere?
There is an in-joke of sorts. To answer it, do a google search for "Red Dragon Interview" or Click Here
It's what the Kobolds say anytime the words "Our Beloved Master" are uttered.
Welcome to Corneria!
I like swords!