I'm about to hit the gym but I'm good to move on to the next day.
I'll let Harakhty and Cyna do their thing first.
I feel sorry for any guards roaming the halls of the fortress tonight, they're in for an earful with all the homecoming welcoming going on.
Lol
Roflmao!
If it's come down to age, anyone try to guess mine? I bet you'll be super surprised.
It's a trap!
Women and talk of age is always a trap.
Nah, she actually means it. You probably won't get it right.
Don't care, still a trap!
I feel sorry for any guards roaming the halls of the fortress tonight, they're in for an earful with all the homecoming welcoming going on.
Lol
Hey! Drago's just cuddling with Elena. At the moment.
Now Corda, she's not quiet.
If she was, Skaar wouldn't be doing his job properly.
Not really sure what to say that doesn't make Cyna seem sad and alone right now.
Not that I care either way, just seems like a mood breaker is all. Bunch of XOX going on and then what? Cyna tends to her horse? Don't think so.
Awe...I don't want Cyna to be sad. *stuck out pouty lip* We need to find her a man!
Skaar and Corda's door isn't locked.
Just sayin'...
No thank you to both. =p
Your loss.
Well, she just needs some time to relax and open up a little to her companions and then she'll have friends and she wont have to be alone. Who knows, maybe there'll be a girly slumber party in the near future. Hehehehehehehehe :oP
I believe I tried that with Skaar and he ran away...
It's alright I just keep the Cuddly Monkey company.
Ya, that needs to happen.
Listening to the soundtrack for Practical Magic. I think track 11 is one of my favorites.....I think it kind of speaks to me. Could be Arista's theme song maybe.
GIRLS ONLY!!! Hence the "girly" part of that, just in case you missed it. :oP
Aahhh....just finished my second ginormous mug of coffee. It's my newest addition to my mug collection. It's a big one that says,Where all my WITCHES AT? LOL I think it's up there in my favorites category, along with the smaller one that says, Goddess with Attitude. Gotta love it!
Cyna could spend some time with her fellow Tiefling, Sienna. Maybe catch up with Elder Sister since she's around.
Edit: I don't think we've established which way Cyna's door swings.
*grumble*
Either way is fine, we'll find someone for her eventually. There's no escaping true love. Ahhhh
BTW....totally buzzin off the caffeine high since I haven't had any at all in the last several days. So....sleep? What's that?
@GM: The world may never know.
Didn't know she was around still but that's a fabulous idea.
Yeah, she's your new neighbor.
So, what's going on now?
A couple conversations.
Yeah, so sleep? It must be one of those mythical things you hear about like, unicorns or honest politicians. It just doesn't exist.
255 new messages on the game play thread? You guys had a busier weekend than I did. :-)
Thats what happens when people dont sleep. LOL
Okay, so I think I've pretty much come to the conclusion that I need to leave my job. The only thing I am getting from it is money, and even though I love helping people, the evil incarnate that try to run that place like a mega corporation....even though it's just a state run hospital in the middle of the ghetto....are making my life a living misery.
For the last few years I have had some kind of ailment, injury, whatever...happen about every 5 to 6 months. These people have never given me anything but grief, and no matter how well I do my job, or how hard I work, all they seem to care about is that when I'm sick or hurt I'm not there, making them their money.
The Payroll office called me again today saying that even though he answered the question, that his writing was illegible and there was no description of the treatment I recieved or the medications that he prescribed. She said she was going to do her best, but without that information it could be denied, again. So, when I see the dr later this week I have to take a list, that I make of ALL the medications he prescribed me, starting from the 10th, when I first saw him as well as the newer ones from my visit on the 14th.
I am at my wits end and Henry and I spent a really long time talking, actually we never went to bed, and we decided that we would take 6 months to pay off the bulk of my medical debt, for him to write his book and attempt to sell it, (which lets just face it, is so gonna happen because he is far more talented than he ever gives himself credit for) and as long as we have most of our debt down I'm going to quit my job, cash out my retirement and then Henry will send me to my friend Misty in San Diego for about a month or so to give me time to decompress and hopefully get my head together.
I'm thinking get a part time job, or a full time secretarial job somewhere, while I go back to school to finish getting my BSW. I just feel as if I've gotten way off track from where I want to be in life and I'm done being their B*&+%. It's time to take my life BACK!
And that's EXACTLY what I aim to do. Misty is my best friend and has been since we were in Kindergarten together. She has a beautiful 2 1/2 year old little girl named Emily, that I have never met. Heck, I haven't seen Misty in several years. I can't actually remember the last time I saw her. Besides....I WANT TO GO TO A DAMN BEACH!
fin
Stayed up till 7am on a skype call. We were reading ero starcraft fanfiction. It was so hilarious, the bags under my eyes totally worth it.
Sounds like a plan
I just feel like...if I don't do something now, I will never get out from under that place. I've been there for 5 years now, and nothing has gotten any better. I really feel that it's time for a change. Which means, as difficult as change is for me....I'm just gonna have to do it.
There's something else that's been weighing on me, which in a way affected my decision. There was an older lady that was a secretary for one of the ICU units that I sometimes worked on. She was always so kind, and always thought of others before herself. She worked weekend nights and I always saw her in the mornings on the weekends as I would wait for Henry to pick me up. She was always smiling, even when she was beyond tired. She always had me come sit next to her and talk to me while we were waiting. On quite a few occasions Henry's relief would be late, and she would just tell me, "Come on girl, let's go home." and have her daughter Nikki take me home on their way. She was really someone special that I will NEVER forget. Her name was Earline, she was 67 and about to retire this December. She passed away on March 1st, around the time that this illness really started taking a hold on me.
I remember she kept telling me how much she loved her job, but how tired she was getting. She kept telling them at work too...but they wouldn't allow her to take time off. She passed of a massive heart attack. I didn't find out about it until the night before her funeral. So, I worked that night, went to her funeral that morning, met my nephew and his family that afternoon to them before they headed back to North Dakota, then went to work that night....with no sleep.
I saw her the weekend before she passed and we were talking about stuff. She said to me,"Karen, what are you still doing here? You know you are better than this place. You need to go back to school and reach for your dream baby." That was one of the last things she said to me before her daughter came that morning to pick her up.
These past few weeks, I've been thinking alot about what she said and I realized that she was right and I deserve better than this. We both deserve better than this. I just don't want to keep going and 5 or 10 years down the road look back and wish I taken a different path.
Although it would be, in a way, easier to stay where I am and keep all the insurance and everything, it isn't me and it's not what I'm supposed to be doing. The path I'm about to take maybe more difficult, but I feel it's the right one.
Getting worn down doing something you hate doesn't sound fun or healthy. Best get while the getting is good.
Gods, I guess I am starting to hate it. I didn't used to. There are still some aspects of it that I love...like my patients...but cons really outweigh the pro's here in this case. I guess it's been getting bad for a while, I'm just not to give up and I keep pushing even when maybe I should just let go.
Thanks :~)
You did all the good you could do there, time for somewhere else to benefit from what you have to offer, somewhere that will appreciate you and everything you bring to the table.
Thats so nice of you to say. Thank you. talking about it help.
Sorry for all the long posts. The last few weeks have just been super stressful, as if having the uber bug wasn't bad enough. I've just been feeling sorta out of it today.
Have some cookies. Cookies make everything better.
*pouts* I didn't even get to make my cookies. I was too out of it and weak today to deal with it. Friend having trouble dealing with the loss of his grandmother a few months ago, and well I tried to help, but neglected myself in the process, so....oh well, it's not like it's unusual for me to do that. Being a caregiver by nature, it's my first instinct, to help, fix, ect ect ect. *shrugs* What else could I do?
Oh yeah, I almost forgot. On top of everything else, I broke the stupid needle I was using to sew my niece's baby blanket with. I found another one, but how do you break a needle?
With great skill?
*laughs* I...really don't know. I was just in the middle of a stitch and it just...broke right in half while it was between my thumb and forefinger. I've never broken a needle before.
Nat 1. Dat fumble.