She just stands a little ways away from them. She didn't want them to see her like this and she already felt stupid enough. She waits at the foot of the stairs for them to finish talking while she takes some time to get her own feelings under control. Acting like a stupid cry baby wasn't going to help anything.
Turning to walk over to Eri, Ravan rests a hand on her shoulder. "It's alright to have concern for your companions Eri, after all we are all we have"
She shakes her head, "No....no it's stupid and it...it doesn't change anything or...or make people care that don't care. It's just....dumb. I'll be fine." She says, pulling away slightly. Sighing she shrugs her shoulders, "I'm still tired...I'm just gonna go back to bed." She says as she holds onto the railing and starts up the stairs while her shoulders sag.
Ruedo was unsure of why Eri was having such a reaction over Cyrus, but he silently assesses the situation. "Yes, let's all go back to bed."
She doesn't say anything, unsure herself of why what he did should upset her so much. He had always been cocky and she was pretty sure that wherever he had gone, that he assumed he could handle whatever he found....and he didn't seem any worse for wear...so why was it bugging her so much? Maybe it was just the fact that like Ravan had said, all they really had was each other...but how could they even have that if they couldn't all trust each other? If Cyrus couldn't trust them enough to tell them what he was up to? Did he feel like it was something he had no time to stop and warn them? She realized that she hadn't really given him a chance to explain himself, but she wasn't sure that he was the type that felt it necessary to explain himself. If he wanted to tell them what he had been up to, then eventually he would she supposed. He just always had a way of making her feel very small and insignificant. Something she should have been used to, but it stung more coming from him. Merely nodding she continues slowly up the stairs, the nights activities having worn her out.
"There's a secret tunnel in the basement that leads to the Balentyne." Cyrus simply says.
She stops in her tracks and sighs, "So...you went wondering around a place that's full of our enemies...by yourself? Why didn't you wake one of us up?" Her tone isn't accusatory, just tired and tinged with worry. What if he went out without them again and something happened to him? He was smarter than she was, but even she wouldn't go out without telling anyone.
"That's a little dramatic don't you think? I did wake someone up." He answers.
She turns around on the stairs and gives him a confused look, "What do you mean? None of us knew where you were, not until Tiadora told me anyways."
"You have your nose don't you? Wouldn't have been that hard if you'd have tried."
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"You're just lucky things went your way, Seth," Bert notes. "I hope your fortune doesn't fail you any time soon."
Narrowing her eyes at him she just shakes her head as she turns around on the stairs and continues back up to her room. There was no point in trying to explain anything to him, he just didn't get it and she doubted he even cared about any of them.
Getting back up to the room that she shared with Ravan, Eri just lays down silently on the bed and curls in on herself. What was the point? You can't be a team when one person thinks they can do everything themselves, or that they're better than everyone else. It didn't matter to her what he thought about her, not really. She pretty much knew that he saw her as nothing more than some stupid kid whos irrational emotions and impulsiveness would most likely get them killed....but she had been trying really hard to control her base urges and actually be helpful....but what was the point? It didn't seem to matter, nothing she did seemed to matter. Fighting back the urge to cry again she closes her eyes and tries to slow her breathing. She had never met anyone that could get under her skin so easily and it really pissed her off.
"If you think I'm going to waste time consulting the three of you every time an opportunity presents itself than you'd do best to disabuse yourself of that notion quickly." Cyrus says with a scoff.
Ravanalonna simply rolls her eyes and heads back to her room.
She hears him as she heads back to the room but ignores him. His arrogance would be his death someday. She just hoped he didn't take the rest of them with him. She didn't care what he said, she would still listen to her gut instinct and be cautious. Especially in a place they knew nothing about. With a sigh she goes in the room.
Lying on the bed she thinks and tries to figure out how he can bother her so easily. At one time she would have just ripped someone like Cyrus apart instead of letting him make her feel this way. She had killed people for less. Whatever....let him get himself killed. If he didn't have to tell them stuff, then she didn't have to listen to or respect him either. She wipes her face again and turns on her side away from the door so Ravan wouldn't see her. She makes herself as small as possible, like she used to without even thinking about it.
She listens as Ravan enters the room quietly. She wasn't sure, but she thought she could almost feel the frustration coming from Ravan....or maybe it was just her? With so many thoughts racing around in her mind, she can't seem to shut them out. If she kept bottling up her feelings this way she knew it would come out at a time that wasn't good and bad things might happen. Trying really hard to suck in her feelings she just asks in a quiet voice as she lays in her bed, "What's wrong with me?"
"Nothing is wrong with you Eri." Ravan says quietly. "It's called concern for other people and when you show it and it isn't...respected, it can be upsetting."
She lays on the bed and listens, but her heart doesn't feel the words. She shakes her head from side to side, "No....there has to be something wrong with me. I don't get like this. People have been far more cruel to me than Cyrus ever has...but it never bothered me like this. He doesn't pick on you or Ruedo...so it has to be me. I know he doesn't like me....I just...I can't do anything right it seems. Half the time I don't even know what he wants or what he's talking about. He said he woke someone up...but I never saw him and Ruedo never said anything about him saying something. Am I supposed to be a mind reader too now?" She says as she starts doubting herself. Maybe she wasn't trying hard enough, maybe she really was lazy and stupid like everyone had ever told her. She tries, but isn't completely successful at keeping the emotion and slightly whiny tone out of her voice. Part of it was this younger disguise, and part of it was how much she was at war with her own feelings.
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Ruedo heads back to bed without another word.
She sort of sighs, "Sorry...for waking you up and everything. I'll just...I'll shut up now so you can go back to sleep." Curling into a little ball she turns on her other side and pulls the covers over her head as if it would keep the thoughts from bombarding her brain.
Cyrus sighs heavily before returning to his room. He'd have to find a way to finish this mission quicker than he originally planned if he wanted to keep his sanity.
The rest of the night passes without incident. As the sun begins to rise, you hear the sounds of morning patrons arriving.
Ravanalonna sits at the side of Eri's bed for a moment, gently rubbing her back. "Cyrus only has one concern, Eri and that's Cyrus. It's just something we all need to keep in mind that if it will benefit him he probably wouldn't bat an eyelash at leaving any of us behind. Not worth your tears."
She nods and uses the sheet to wipe her face, "I'm not crying over him....that would be stupid and pointless. Honestly I don't know why I'm doing this. Part is probably frustration and lack of sleep, but...but I don't understand why what he does should bother me so much. I never used to let stuff people said bother me before, so why now? I don't know....it's why I said it was stupid. I don't think I'm making any sense anyways. I'm sorry again Rav....really I am. I don't mean to be such a pain." She still talks quietly, not wanting to bother anyone else, but she seems much calmer. Pulling the covers away from her face she turns in the bed to face Ravan and gives her a small smile, "I'll be okay....really, so we should get some more sleep....just...thanks Rav." Reaching out a hand she pats Rav's hand to let her know she really was okay before pulling it back under the covers and yawns slightly.
"Alright. Good night Eri." she says quietly before going back to bed.
Nodding she yawns again as she settles underneath the covers and tries to go back to sleep. She had worn herself out with that little scene she had created earlier on top of everything else it was just too much. As her eyes drift close she says, "Night Ravan....thanks again." She says softly as her body already starts succumbing to sleep. In a couple of minutes she's back fast asleep.
Ruedo awakens and gets dressed. He heads downstairs and orders some breakfast.
She makes a groaning noise as the light hits her in the face and tries to hide underneath the covers.
Waking up as the sunlight brightens the room, Ravanalonna sits up and stretches. Looking over at Eri, she smiles at her reaction to the morning light. "So...not a morning person?"
She kind of groans again before saying from under the covers in a still somewhat muffled and cranky voice, "Not when I get up in the middle of the night, and then can't go back to sleep right away. I don't always hate mornings....I sleep better when I'm with Ruedo....." She sighs, "It's nothing personal Rav...I'm sorry I dragged you out of bed for nothing last night. I still don't know what woke me up, or what it was I thought I heard. Listen....I trust you...so, do you think when we eat and stuff you can just order for me? It's too hard trying to get these people to understand what I want with gestures. I really didn't think this thing out very well....I was just....I figured if I didn't talk to anyone I wouldn't say anything stupid and mess things up." She says while keeping her head under the covers and stretching.
Cyrus finishes his meditation and heads down stairs in search of a morning meal and coffee.
Letting out a groan that ends in a sigh she finally kicks the covers off and gets up to go to the wash basin and wash her face and brush her teeth before going downstairs. While Ravan is getting ready she says, "I don't feel like eating a whole lot this morning, so just get me something light okay? I don't do yucky oatmeal or anything slimy. I won't eat green vegetables or turnips.....ever. Just maybe some biscuits and eggs with some fruit? Yeah...I think that's all I want." She says thoughtfully.
Heading downstairs, you see several Dwarves and a few men in guard uniforms, the Innkeeper looks at you, and smiles. As if nothing had happened at all last night.
One of the servers showed you to a table, "What can I get you this morning?"
"Eggs, coffee and some meat," Bert says.
Once they're both ready, she goes downstairs with her and sits at the table with the others and remains silent.
"Of course." Ravan replies, getting dressed before heading down with Eri to get some breakfast. "Eggs and bacon with coffeee for myself, and biscuits, eggs and fruit for the little one." she says affectionately, smiling over at Eri.
She nods and gives Ravan a smile before glancing up at Ruedo and then goes back to looking down and playing with the ruffles on her dress.
Before the serving girl leaves she realizes that nothing was ordered for her to drink. Quickly tugging on Ravan's sleeve she makes the drinking motion with her hand to try and let them know she'd want something to drink as well.
Ruedo gives Eri a slight nod.
"And orange juice as well." Ravan calls to the serving girl.
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She nods as she looks relieved, she had been worried for a moment that she might end up being stuck drinking milk again.
The Serving Wench jotted down the orders and headed to the back to fulfill them.
While she was gone, the Red-headed Elf came down the stairs, to the table and asked, "May I have a seat?"
She looks at Ravan before looking back at the elf lady and pointing to the chair next to her she nods. Standing up in her chair she turns to look her over more closely and takes a few sniffs of her nonchalantly.
Ravanalonna nods slightly.