Yup
@Cyna-- Don't forget to put that Belt of Incredible Dexterity +2 on your equipment list somewhere.
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All Fixed.
Alrighty.....all this time I totally forgot I could understand Abyssal...that's just freakin hilarious.
That is pretty funny.That was a great exchange by the way. Also the visual of the Sliver skinned person blushing iron
Thanks......I try. *Bats eyelashes innocently*
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I just envision the question being asked while they were on fire and I can't stop laughing.
I meant that for before they erupted in flames......but, that works too. I'm sitting in the ICU unit and laughing my ass off.
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I figured as much, it just reads really funny and wrong the other way.
I know....I know
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I know I should eat lunch.....but I don't think I can.
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Upset stomach?
We ate at our usual Mexican restaurant, so I'm thinking it's stress.
It's been an icky sorta night....you sooo don't want me to expand on that. Lol I went downstairs and got a little thing of actual yogurt insstead of the nasty artificial sugar one in my bag, some fruit, a juice, and.....ICE CREAM!! Okay....okay...I wasn't gonna.....but, its a new flavor honey. Malt shop....chocolate malt ice cream with malted milk balls....I'm hoping it'll be close enough to my chocolate malted crunch that maybe I won't miss it soo much. Its a cruel cruel world bubby. *Sad pouty lip face*
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Oh dear...I know what you'll be coming home with from now on.
I haven't even tried it yet. I'M havin the yogurt, fruit, granola, and nutrigrain bar first. So there....for future reference though.....juice doesn't go well with that stuff.
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Dipping the nutri grain bar in the yogurt is good though. I gotta eat and quit touching my phone.....it's getting......messy.
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Heh.
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What?
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I applaud you on eating like a grown up. ;p
But seriously that ice cream sounds really good.
No worries....it's no where close to my chocolate malted crunch....they got it all wrong.....sigh. I is sad now....
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Sorry, dear.
Awww that sucks
Yup....it's about that time.....full moon is Monday and I'm starting to feel the first twingez of pain. At least Ill be off for the worst of it....geez. I really must feel close to you guys if I can talk bout that thing in front of ya's without thinking about it too much.
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Heh good point. By this time we all know how this ooc thread works. Support group/sanity maintainance/good laugh/b#%+%ing post/therapy for all of us.
Amen.
Okay.....I gotta stop pulling on huge ass hippos today.....cuz that ol tearing sensation is coming back.....I swear.....I need to talk to someone cuz this can't be normal......can it?
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I doubt it.
I don't know......how am I supposed to understand something that I've gone all these years without really having?
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O...M...G!!!! I just punched a in his side......s&$~.
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What?!
On purpose?
Sneak Attack?
Ummm....no...no...no, not really on purpose. He was just in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I was busy pulling trash, and when I'm focused on a task I'm not really paying attention to what's going on around me and he wasn't paying attention to where he was going.
On E4 they have a big trash can on wheels, and a smaller one on wheels. When I pull trash I take both of those cans, make sure that there are extra bags in them and then line them with a bag to dump the trash into, while being able to access the extra bags from underneath the liner when I need to replace one.
So....I was dumping said trash and there was a bag that I needed to replace and I was kinda bent over and facing away from the hallway that had become busy with traffic since the primary teams were making rounds... well....there was this tall Dr guy and he was coming out of a room while I was trying to pull out said trash bag to replace one that was all nasty. Once these cans start filling up with stuff I gotta pull kinda hard...like yanking them out cuz like I said, they are underneath the liner in the can with a bit sticking out so I can pull it. When I yanked on said bag, he was coming around kinda to the side and behind me and I didn't see him, so......when I yanked my fist came out and caught him kinda in the lower side....but more or less in his no no place...if ya know what I mean. It took me a minute to realize what had happened, but he kinda grabbed my arm to keep from falling over I guess....maybe I knocked him off balance a bit? Anyways....I was all like, "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh....I'm so sorry...", and he was telling me it was okay, but I was also kinda laughing....I don't know why I do that....it's been like that since I was a kid.
If I hurt someone....usually on accident, I would start laughing even though I didn't mean to....even if they were hurt pretty bad. It was the one thing that always used to piss off my best friend Misty when we were growing up....but I didn't mean to and I would say I was sorry, but it never seems to come across very well while I'm standing there or whatever, laughing my ASS off. Maybe some kind of nervous response or something? I don't know.....
Anyways...that's what happened...no worries, I'm not in jail or anything. Lol
Sorry the post about that one incident is so long...but I didn't have time earlier to really explain and it's hard to explain something like that in a way that makes sense. I am a total detriment to society....it was fine when I was just hurting myself...but now? I guess I'm gonna have to get foam padding for the people that work with me as well I suppose. *sigh* Good grief.....
I don't know if you would call it a sneak attack exactly....I wasn't really expecting to do that....and if he had been paying attention to where he was going, it wouldn't have happened in the first place.....I think. OH my GOD I can't stop laughing...even now...ow ow my side. Okay okay okay...he might not have been expecting the attack....but, neither was I...LOL.
Heh....that sucks for him but it was an accident. And yeah you're one of those people with the unfortunate laughter response to people getting hurt. My brother had it, got him into trouble more than a few times.
Yeah....but threats and beatings....eventually they don't have any meaning anymore. Especially if I was being "punished" for defending myself. My parents were thoughtless morons...what else can I say?
Now, if I actually hurt someone with the intention of hurting them though, I wouldn't laugh....just glare mostly. Depended on why I was hurtin em though, different circumstances equaled different reactions and so forth.
Most of that s!~& stopped though once I got the Hell outta that damn private "Christian" school though...since most of the kids that went there actually acted like rich spoiled hell spawn, and delighted in nothing more than making my time there total misery.
That is just.....unacceptable. But you're past all that now.
Yeah....it's not really a big deal I guess because ultimately....it made me who I am, but not in the way they wanted it or expected it to. There may be some residual issues left and it may be part of the reason why it's so hard for me to....how do I put this? It's hard for me to accept that I'm a different person than I used to be, and why anger is one of my first emotional responses to most things...like when people say or do things that hurt me or someone that I love/care about. It's just one of those things that I have to keep working on though. There are some things that...in a way I don't think will ever truly be forgotten....cuz...well, they were moments that shaped who I became....but, that doesn't mean that I have to let them affect the person that I am now.
Does that make sense? I question myself a lot and still doubt my ability and self worth...but that all goes with the territory. My parents just did what they thought was right based off of the way they were raised, but that doesn't make it right and I know that. It's what will make me a better parent than they ever were.
I know you do and it's understandable, but you are who you are despite those things. You will be such a better parent than that, it's what has been my guiding theme, be a better parent than my dad was and I'd like to think I've succeeded. And I know you guys will.
There's the people who break under pressure and the people who only get stronger, tougher and more resilient.
You know which one you are.
Yeah...I just hope that I'm strong enough, so that when the time comes, I can leave and not feel....like a bad person or regret the decision. I think maybe this whole situation is....like you said Toxic, and it's not just my parents or so called family...it's pretty much everything.
It's just gotten to the point where I don't really feel like this is home anymore and I keep feeling like I need to be somewhere else, but I don't know if that's just the frustrations talking or if I'm really supposed to be somewhere else. I don't know....I know I should be tired, but my head won't stop thinking and it's going in circles.
So, how's first grade? Is he loving it?
Sorry, I know I just jumped topic, but I really need to stop thinking about all this other heavy stuff.
No problem. Yeah he is. While we were waiting for them to unload the buses and get the kids in, he already made friends with a girl in his class. A few of his friends from kindergarten are there, his best friend and his "girlfriend" lol, as well as a couple of others.
He's having a good time so far.
Aawweeee.....that is too cute. It helps to have friends in the same class.
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Yeah it's definitely made it easier, not that he has too much trouble making friends, but I'm glad.
I actually met Misty when I went to Kindergarten, the first time around. Making friends wasn't easy for me....for previously discussed reasons....but for some reason we almost instantly bonded....we were both four and she lived at the end of our street. We stood up for each other all the time, it helped that her seriously bigger and older brother Jojo, went to the same school. Though a few grades ahead of us, he was pretty cool and was quick to take up for either one of us if he actually saw someone picking on ine of us. That one year, the times I spent with Misty were most of my happier memories.
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Well....Cindy is texting me now. Apparently Abby fell off their roof....I guess I know where I need to go now. Just a matter of finding a way and the right time...but it better be soon. Abby spent 5 hours in the ER, but looks like the damage was minimal....thank the Goddess. Those are my babies though, and I need to throttle Cindy.....she is one person that really doesn't deserve the gifts that those precious girls are.
I talked to her one time and she was mad at the girls for one reason or another and told them she was gonna bring them down to me and leave them with me....Abby and Tatum got their bags and when Cindy asked them what they were doing Tatum said, "Don't be stupid mom, you just said you'd take us to Titi." Damn....I love those girls. I miss them horribly too.
It's good to have that, and great to see friendships that last like that.
Titi is what the girls call me...have ever since they were baby babies. I think that's how it's spelled. It sound like Teetee though. Last time I talked to Tatum on the phone she said, "If I get to see you again Titi, I'm never gonna leave you again."
Aww that's absolutely adorable. Ok, the Athena's been walked, and I need to head to bed. I'm sure you do as well. I'll see you in a few hours.
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Yeah I really do....I'm just waiting for Cindy to actually CALL me so I can talk to the girls...then I'll try to go to sleep. I'll feel better after I talk to my babies...I'm sure of it.
You have a good rest.