I'm currently running RotRL for a party of 4. I've been the gm since the groups creation around 18 months ago, I had only played once before that. Over the course of the last 4-5 months I've started to get the feeling that the sessions feel more like something I'm doing just because no one else stood up to the plate. Half the sessions I would end up being bitter that I spent the whole last night doing prep, and the fighter still cant manage to attack up his bonuses correctly at level 8. Or that the casters would spend the first 10 minutes wondering what spells to pick even though they know what they're up for.
It got to the stage where I put the campaign on hiatus for a month then we started playing again. After the first session back I could tell nothing had changed. The wonder and excitement seemed to have gone from the game, I couldn't tell if it was the campaign or the setting or if I just was burnt out being a gm.
So I asked one of my players if he would mind running Tomb of Horrors as I had heard good things and I wanted to play a Paladin I had been thinking up. So we got about 3/4 of the way though it last weekend and I cant remember the last time I had so much fun with the game, perhaps never.
Then I came to the realization that for most of the time I have been the gm I haven't really been enjoying myself. I have been forcing myself to do it for some reason. In retrospect can probably easily count on my hands the number of times in the last 18 months I've actually had true fun. The best way I can describe is "Ugh... I have to prep for tomorrow"
So, I find myself in the awkward spot of not wanting to continue a campaign we're half way though. Everyone in the group is about to start back at university. The only other person with any gm experience is already running another group and is about to be a freshman. He has agreed to run some modules until uni starts in around a month. Of the other 3, 1 of them doesn't have really... have a high enough charisma to put it in game terms. The other two I'm so sure about. I feel bad for leaving a campaign hanging even though I know I shouldn't. I'm doing something I'm not enjoying which takes a good 15 hours a week and not getting paid for it.
I'm not really sure what the point of this thread is, maybe I just needed to vent or hear similar stories. I know this is long so if you took the time to read this thank you.
*edit. I forgot to actually ask what peoples advice is.