I am alive and operational.
Still here.
Still here. Just been having trouble deciding when and where to chime in.
Still here. Just been having trouble deciding when and where to chime in.
Where ever and when ever you like!
Hell, take the game in a different direction if you like. :-)
I know you know I'm here, but still: I'm here.
I'm here! Kinda waiting to see where the rest of the party is on what work we're looking for.
Well we're going to find out soon enough partner.
Well at the very least that post amused me ;-)
And of course just as I start to get my posting rate back up again I get friggin' sick.
Anyway, new post up. Let's see where this first plot hook leads and whether its something you all will want to follow.
Herman (Xocualtuatl) is going to swap characters for this one. I will also be bringing in a new PC as its pretty clear that Arcantos the Gunsmith will not be joining the group. I believe Kiana is still with us but RL busy, we shall see once the plot starts moving forward.
I say I say, thank you for having me board this fine crew. However I must part way, adios amigos!
anyways, as Wanderer said I will be swapping in another character that might should mesh more with the group or rather our employer.
Going to post again soon, just poor time management at the moment.
As the Oasis is the place to be, you've ended up back there to RP a bit and info gather.
One of the players is changing PCs so this will allow for his new PC to join the group.
Going to post with the new character shortly, I'm just running errands. So will have him introduced ASP. Thanks for your patience and consideration.
okay character is done.
Going to make one last post with Herman and then he's off.
OK, before I push us forward, I want to see who is still here. Between the boards being a mess and RL being a disaster for me lately it looks to me like:
Still with us: Alsande, Mylon, Samuel, and the Rev.
Joining us: Herman's new PC. Shoot me a PM with that alias, you may have a few weeks ago but I've lost track so I'll need a new one :-)
Out: Kiana, she's not posted in almost three months and that was an OOC post.
That's 5 PCs. I am happy to continue with just the 5 of you, might speed up Gameplay a bit.
My plan is to introduce the new PC the next day I/C. He'll also provide the group with some goods that will be needed to survive out in the Wastes including Cold Iron rounds/melee weapons.
Yep, still here. Although finals are soon, so I may be slow for the next couple of weeks. :)
I'm here.
Here is the new PC
Reporting in.
This is just my hot build, I'm going to add his cover name and fix it up for everyone's convenience.
Alright, things haev settled a bit, getting back to regular updates once more.
Let's see if we can't actually start wandering these wastes!
Good idea to remember the name better.
You just reminded me, I need to get that SoM PDF now that it's out :-)
"Ye got both of'em 'ere, in this wiki."
Sorry about that, I got lost in all the time. I will do it now for him and Herman.
Sorry about not doing it before, Joyous Yuletides to the masses.
Updated, meant to get to this earlier in the week but well Life.
I've been as busy as storyteller it seems, I will update my part tonight.
Ugh RL sucks, especially when it keeps me away from my games for so long.
Update now.
It’s pretty late at night as I am writing this. I’ve been through a significant amount of struggles through the past two years (actually through the past 41 but especially the past 2). I’ve had worse stretches of time before but I believe that these past struggles were due to my own lack of maturity and self-awareness at the time those events took place.
Likely those events were necessary for me to experience to survive the events of the past two years and get through them as well as I have. Physical ailments, getting older and requiring more sleep, bankruptcy, and ultimately divorce. You know life is not going swimmingly when going to work feels like a vacation.
Regardless, when I first started getting involved in PbP on the boards it was a chance to play, finally! I’d been DMing for the bulk of the time that I’ve played table top that I was enjoying being able to be a player for once. Then with so many damn flaky GM’s I just started running games and well, things snow balled from there.
Life was fairly stable at the time the normal ups and downs. Then about two years ago, I started getting into PbP as a way to escape reality. Sort of the same ways drugs were casual and enjoyable for me as a teen and ultimately led me as close to suicide as I ever want to get again.
I am not saying that PbP has made me suicidal but I am saying that I recognize that I was using PbP as a coping mechanism to avoid a bad marriage. PbP did NOT lead to the failure of my marriage but it did contribute to my ability to tune it out.
I make a decent living but between bankruptcy and divorce I’ve little to show for it (well except for this killer book and RPG collection ). I could point the finger at my soon to be ex-wife but when you point one finger at a person, three more point back at you. I could have prevented things from becoming this bad and I chose not to. I did it, ironically, because I believed that if I had the marriage would have ended and ended badly, so much for best intentions. I am not going to second guess myself, what happened happened. As divorces go, this one has been rather amicable as we have put our daughter first and ourselves second.
Being married to someone who makes as much if not more money then you (depending on sales that year) places one in a position to “take it easy” when it comes to being aggressive about making money (well it placed me in such a position anyhow perhaps because making money does not move me).
Early on in my career I had an opportunity to become a premiere M&A Financial Services Tax Attorney in a Big 4 Firm. It’s a big deal and potentially a lot of money but I did not really want it because I knew I would be working a lot and traveling a lot. My ex agreed that I should turn it down as she did not want to be married to a workaholic and that was not who I wanted to be anyway. Nor do I want to be that person now. (In yet another twist of irony, she has become a workaholic, funny how things turn out).
I do not regret the decision though I do lament the loss of income that such a decision would have brought to me.
All of this rambling nonsense is leading to the point of this post, I need to work more. Not at my current job nor do I want to get a new job, I actually like being there as odd as that sounds (to me). I need to get a second and perhaps a third job, side gigs. At 41 about to turn 42 with no retirement and no savings for my daughters college, I can no longer hope that the ex’s business will come through as an investment plan. Even if it does, I will not be the beneficiary of that largesse. I need to make up for 11 years of being “comfortable” simply working.
Thus, it is with heavy heart that I am announcing that I will need to close down a number of the threads I run and withdraw from a number of the games I am a PC in.
I suppose this decision will not be a surprise to many of you as my posting rates have been abysmal since these events took a turn for the worse (in some respects the better to be honest) since Thanksgiving of 2017.
I am not generally a person that feels remorse or guilt but I do feel a level of disappointment with having to make this decision. I apologize for disappointing many of you who put work into PCs relying on my consistency as a GM/DM over the course of the past several years.
My plan had always been to run a hardcore dose of RPG’s until my daughter was a teenager and then, spend my free time writing the novel I had been working on since before she was born. I had hoped that over the next 9 years or so I could wrap up most of these campaigns and the few that remained would be more manageable.
Life has not worked out that way.
The good news is that I will still run several games but the current load is too much for me to handle in this transition. The further good news is that I believe this will allow for those games to move along much more quickly.
By tomorrow I will have made my decision as to which games I will keep and which I will shut down.
Thank you all for taking the journeys with me despite the lack of length or resolution of so many of them.
I will still be around just in a diminished capacity so this is not goodbye just a “be seeing less of you”.
I know what it's like to become addicted to a hobby as escapism. It takes a lot of strength to recognize the problem and force oneself to face reality.
Whether you decide to end this game or not, I support your decision and hope you can find peace of mind one day.
I'm really sorry for your troubles, and I completely understand how gaming can become a way to hide.
It is often said on these boards that real life must come first, so do not worry if you have to drop this or other games, and thank you for telling us.
Thanks for the support guys.
Unfortunately, this is one of the games that I will need to close.
Good luck and good gaming all.