+ little to no sleep so....yeah ticking time bomb pretty much. I'm trying really hard to reign it in...but it just feels like it's overflowing and every time I think I have it shut off it comes back on full force. It's like trying to turn off a fire hydrant with a damn allen wrench.
And then to top it all off this stupid crying crap that doesn't do a damn bit of good except to get me stopped up even worse when I don't know what the hell I'm crying for in the first damn place. Just off and on...I don't even know anymore...I just give up. I hate feeling crap.
Okay...lunch is made and in the fridge for tomorrow and I need to go lay down before I fall out in the floor.
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Goodnight everyone...
Andrew...I hope you're doing okay. We haven't heart from you for...well it probably seems a lot longer than it really is, but we worry about our bubba....well, me mostly...but I hope everything is okay.
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I'm alive. :)
Paizo died right after i posted that :(
also I have mold...
Yeesh. How bad?
It's in the carpet so I'm not sure, there's a public bathroom against that wall and water is seeping through. I thought it was just one instance but it's getting worse. I called the office about it awhile ago but the guy who came didn't do anything noticeable or leave a note.
The Hells? I call Bull S~*@.
Okay.....I'm fighting really hard to not go off again. At the risk of sounding like a crazy lunatic....if they don't get that s@&* fixed and I mean the right way and in a timely manner, you can bet your ass that the very next chance I get I will be driving my ass out there. (you're really not that far of a drive away) That is absolutely ridiculous and there's no way that they should expect you to keep living in those conditions. You can end up with a serious illness and fair warning, if something happens to you because of those c*#sucking bastards, well....I won't get into details here, but let's just say it won't be pleasant for them.
Okay....deep breath, deeeep breath.
So...I think in my enraged state yesterday I kinda killed paizo for a bit. Sorry
What state are you in again?
He's in Omaha Nebraska...it's actually rather pretty out that way. Been through there a couple times on our crazy family drives across the states cuz dad wants to see how car sick he can make me roadtrips. Lol
There wasn't mold the first time I called it was just wet, but whatever is causing it is still going on because it's getting worse.
http://www.nolo.com/legal-encyclopedia/nebraska-tenant-rights-withhold-rent -repair-deduct.html
Okay...but still...it doesn't take mold long to get into your respiratory system and start causing problems. It kind of depends on the kind of mold, I'm pretty sure that black mold is one of the worse ones. Either they need to fix it, or put you up somewhere else temporarily until it's fixed.
Page not found... NVM fixed it.
I've got an interview on Tuesday.
Sorry....just have had some bad experiences with people living in moldy houses and I don't want anything bad happening to you. Whenever we meet up it is not allowed to be in a hospital...do you understand me? :o/
Congrats on the interview.
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Okay yes...sorry I got distracted by my slight rant...but kudos on the interview. Very happy for you and wishing you the very best. I just...I"m sorry if I sound totally crazy but...I never really had a little brother before being the youngest of five kids....but, that's pretty much how I feel about you and if you get sick because of someone else's stupidity....as bad as I may seem right now...that will be NOTHING compared to what you will see if I have to go down there. I just worry...and when I worry it comes out in....strange ways.
Way to go!
So I will probably make a separate thread for the side adventure to Malwen. We have enough spoilered stuff going on.
I have no doubt you'll land the job.
Makes sense to me....too much spoilered stuff makes my head go Whhaaa
Yeah I think that's a good idea.
Okay...I really gotta try not to grind my teeth. My head feels like an elephant is sitting on top of it...or maybe one of those things that you put on something and keep making it tighter and tighter and tighter? I know we should eat...but I just feel like crap and I had juice and medicine and two goldfish crackers...so that's like food.
OH....I'm drinking plenty of water though. Lol I should really be wearing my glasses...but they make my face hurt more.
Well...aside from Sandy b+!%$ing about me needing to take a few hours off on Thursday to see the Dr it wasn't a completely awful day. I didn't fall on my face despite having a whole whopping forty-five minutes of sleep last night, and none of the kids used me as their personal bouncy house. I just got bit and headbutted in the side of my face....in the soft spot by the top of the ear and part of my ear while holding a child that didn't want the nurse touching him.
He hit me so hard that my ear was ringing and it just sort of jarred me, but I didn't hardly flinch or yell. Just sorta stood there dazed for a bit, luckily I didn't drop him while he was flailing about. I didn't fall either...so that was good.
If my sinuses and head and stuff wasn't hurting before...it sure is now.
Okay...I'm having frozen bannana in dark chocolate with pieces of almonds on them. Four whole slices...or wait, it's three actually. Still...it's food.
I'm thinking about this for the poem for Michael that he wanted to give to Jelks. I had one...but I think I like this one better.
If questioning would make us wise
No eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
If all our tale were told in speech
No mouths would wander each to each.
Were spirits free from mortal mesh
And love not bound in hearts of flesh
No aching breasts would yearn to meet
And find their ecstasy complete.
For who is there that lives and knows
The secret powers by which he grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
To thrill and faint and sweetly bleed?
Then seek not, sweet, the "If" and "Why"
I love you now until I die.
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give.
Thoughts?
You mean a vise? Yeah it's food...technically.
Yeah....that squeezy thingy. I'll try to eat something later...I just don't wanna right now.
Okay, for some reason, I can't seem to wrap my head around the poem. Perhaps it's the Jack.
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Stop drinking and read it later. Lol....hope you have something to eat with that drink. You kill me.....
Does pizza count?
Also, it's mixed with soda.
The booze, not the pizza.
I had a shorter one that I came up with....but it was almost too simple....eh, I don't know. Here...I'll post it here too so you can compare. I think Henry liked the first one more by a bit.
Without you there is no music,
for whom would I dance with?
Without you there is no light,
for whom else would I want to see?
Without you there is no joy,
For what reason would I have to be happy?
You are my music, my light, my joy.
You are my everything,
What life would I want without you?
That was it...pretty short and basic. I was trying to include a kind of musical theme to it since Jelks was a bard...but I don't know.
OH s!!$......I kinda figured that dude. Lol I know jack and coke. I used to go to parties, clubs, raves, some private parties. Jack and coke is the reason I walked into a closed sliding glass door at a friends house one time. LMAO.....It hurts to laugh...please...stop.
I found that greasy foods and alcohol do NOT mix well....but then again I'm hypoglycemic so that could have A LOT to with it. Hence my not drinking anymore unless it's super yummy homemade cranberry/pom wine.....MMMmmmmmm.....that was some good s@%@!
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Yeah poetry an liquor don't usually work. I like the musical connotations of the second one. The First one seems more appropriate to Micheal's way of thinking.
Actually, it's Sodastream Dr Pete and two shots of Jack.
*squints eyes and shrugs shoulders* What's a sodastream? I have no idea what these things are....except the jack...I'm pretty clear on what that is.
Yeah....the first one sounded like it would actually come from Michael because he's so learned and stuff...I think it just sounded better. It had a sort of musicality to it as well I thought. It just sorta seemed to flow better, ya know?
I think I'm sleepy now.....I'm also hurting though....
Just let the need for sleep wash over you, quieting the aches and pains, calming your breathing.
I gonna trying
night night everybody...I no want to be wake anymore.
Sweet dreams.
Here's hoping.....