I am a historian. I love history.
I am also a DM for my group (No, I don't care if Wizards has Dungeon Master trademarked. I'm a DM, and I claim the damn title.)
But the fact of the matter is, I need help getting excited about Golarion again. I had a few bad games, some players who overanalyzed things, picked apart what I did, the setting, and dictated to me how things should and should not happen. It wasn't a pleasant experience. I'm all for player interaction and direction, but rule 0 has gotta be observed.
In the end,one of my complaints with Golarion as a setting; I can never seem to make it "dark" or even all that "dark-agey" it's too high adventure, too renaissance; women are treated equitably, racism is at low usually, even though looking deeper it should be a VERY dark setting, but I can't seem to make it feel like such.
The setting itself is in a dark age; enlightenment; gone, hope, failing. it's called the Age of Lost Omens,the major Christ figure, Aroden, broke his promises and failed to appear when he said he would; His empire on earth collapsed into a literal hell-hole of opression and hatred, countries were swallowed by hurricanes, and others had gaping holes to the abyss ripped into them.
At least one of my players tells me it feels at the level of depth and darkness I want to give it, I enjoy dark because it makes the light stand out all the more.
But the fact of the matter is, I feel am misrepresenting the setting. It feels to nice, too pleasant; not that it needs to become a hell hole, but right now it lacks depth; it feels like I'm glossing over plenty of the stuff that's interesting.
To the synisthetic among you, right now my game feels grey, and pastel-ish; I want what I see in the art style of the books; high contrast, "Savage Sword of Conan" sorts of things.
Perhaps part of it has to do with how I think of it, because in the end, my last group of players helped make me feel this way; They divorced me of the setting so much that I can't help but think of it as being wrapped in cotton batting. I want Golarion to feel *real*. A fantastic world with all the variety and moral depth that can be attained.
I'm rather at the end of my rope. I suppose the majority of it is all based in how I feel about the setting, but I don't really know how to get that back.