Yeah....it knocks me out sorta okay....but then I just wake up groggy as all get out and feeling doped up or something and I don't like that so I stopped using it....cuz I always woke up that way whether I got 6 hrs of sleep or 12 hours if sleep.
With my back acting up now it just feels like all the nerves are exposed....I don't know how else to explain it. It does this sometimes and it doesn't do much to cause it since I've fallen so many times and damaged it so much with the work I used to do. So...it's basically like a strain...but some of the muscles in my back are just spasms now that are all kinda knotted up and stuff. So I need the flexeril to relax the muscles so that they go back to where they belong, and the tramadol to reduce the pain so my body can recover easier. I know these things and would have taken some already, but I finally ran out of what I left over from my shoulder issue that I had a few years back.
I'm used to dealing with pain though....so I'll just deal with it till I can get to the Dr. I took a Naproxen about 20 minutes or so on top of the Ibuprofen that I had about six hours ago or so, so I'm hoping to get enough relief here in a little bit to go and lay back down. I'm kinda sitting up in the arm chair in the living room with my feet propped up on the coffee table. I refuse to keep Henry awake with my stupid body.
I'm sure. And the lack of sleep means the muscles aren't getting the rest and recovery time they need.
I know....it's not helping and just making me feel more frustrated and angry.
The lack of sleep that is.
I'm just so tired and all I want is a body that's not f'ed up all to hell and back....but like my gran also used to say, "Want in one hand and poop in the other and see which one fills up faster" And there was something about wishes and horses....but I don't remember that one very well. I just remember the other cuz it made me go, "Grandma!" a lot. God I miss that woman.
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If wishes were horses beggars would ride
That was it! How'd you know that?
The muscle is literally shaking inside of me. I can feel it as it spasms.....I hate this body. I HATE it!
I wish.....
That was it! How'd you know that?
My grandmother said it too.
I know, but you need to calm down because your being upset is only firing off more impulses to all the muscles in your body.
I know....I'm sorry....I'm fine.
I'm trying
I'm okay....but my stomach is starting to feel sick again and my head is pounding again so I need to go lay down. I'll let you know what the Dr says after I see him.
Okay. Hope you're able to doze off for a bit at least.
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Me too. Hope your night isn't too full of crappy people.
Yeah.....so slept for crap. Still really hurting, but it's just throbbing inside me now. But it's ok as long as I lie perfectly still and don't move whatsoever......*sigh* So I texted Ashley and let her know that I needed to go to the Dr today, and she of course was successful in making me feel like a total B for doing it....but I did it. Now I have to wait till 8 when their phones are on to call and hopefully have them squeeze me in somewhere after 2 so James can take me and then talk to Progressive about getting the car to the shop. Also....I'm sick to death of this bipolar weather. Stick to one f'ing season at a time Damn it.
I just don't know how to explain what's wrong to the stupid receptionist. Do I tell them that I started with food poisoning and ended up straining my back? I just never know how to explain "Why I need to see the Dr" it always makes me want to say, "Why the F do you think I want to see him? For old times sake? I'm sick you f'ing B." I'm just irritated by the whole process and about having to see him again when I just got done paying off one bill and getting close to paying off three others....it just sucks and I hate my body.
Just start with a list of symptoms. You can leave the explanation for the doctor.
I pretty much have the icky stuff under control....if I had to say I think it would just be nausea, headache, and the pain in my back...the pain being the chief complaint I think? Well that and the difficulty breathing when I try to move and it feels like I'm being stabbed....repeatedly. Its that kind of sharp sudden pain that takes your breath away for a moment.
Yup say that. They'll get you in.
They did....it's at 3:15....but they got me in today which Ashley thought was pretty good.
I'm warming up some chicken noodle soup...hopefully I can handle it so I can take some Tylenol for my raging headache, and then I will call the insurance people to see about getting our shiny piece of $hit towed to a place that might actually be able to fix it.
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Chicken noodle soup....Check. Two pieces of multi-grain toast....check. Gatorade....check.
Get some sleep Mark.....soon to be Check. ;oP
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After dropping my call or disconnecting or whatever three times I finally got the Roadside service people. ETA 11:45...I need to move it and get ready.
Tylenol...check.
Mission-Get the tow...complete
HazaHH!!
They welded the catalytic converter back on for $20...but they didn't disconnect the battery. The car still runs poorly, but it was smoking when Karen brought it to me at work. The fire department had to extinguish it and I drove it home though. Everyone had a good laugh at work...
P.S. Karen has taken medication and probably will not post tonight. Sleep sounds so good after this hellish day.
Good. Both of you should just get some rest.
Everything hurt so much....no comfort....no position. Can't block it out. Soooo tired....so so tired....it to much...tttoooo much.
I'm on lots of meds....so probably not Oo much from me today....but I Will just say that because of that mechanics....negligence I could have easily died yesterday. I didn't....but by the time I get done with the owner of that place today they will probably wish I had.
Fu<k the phone. They had the chance to own up to their mistake yesterday when my husband called to talk to them about it and they were dismissive, passive aggressive, and insulting by calling him "Ma'am".
NO. NO ONE.....and I mean NO ONE disrespects my baby. ESPECIALLY when he has the fire department putting out a fire in our car that was apparently started by their negligence. As I was driving. I saw the smoke....but I have no sense of smell....so I didn't know the car was on fire. If the live wire had come close as all to the gas tank....or whatever....I can't even....
Suffice it to say that I have some things to say to the owner and they WILL listen to me....OR they will be very....very sorry.
That is all.
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And yea....I'm gonna get some more rest first so I gots my wits about me when I have Henry take me down their to confront the owner in person.
Peace ✌
Make it clear that any lawyer would jump at the chance to bring this lawsuit.
Oh honey don't worry....we gots this. I was given the words this morning after a really really horrible and vivid nightmare that I had about the douchebag that stalked me back to my sisters house and insinuated that "I wanted to have a good time" ummmm...it's kinda reopened a few things from my past that I'm going to have to deal with. I have to live through the emotion so that I can close those old wounds and stuff before I'm able to move on. If anything...yesterday taught me that there are lots of stuff that I've pretended I'm over or thought I had "gotten over" that I am not over...not by a long shot. I may need to seek out some counseling actually for a little bit. I sought some advice and someone to talk me through the crazy with Lefey....and she told me that it is OKAY to not be okay. So...in a bit here I'm going to call a couple of my....spiritual leaders to ask them for some guidance to make sure that when I DO go to those carpet baggers....that it is from a place of righteous anger and not just out of a need to rip their heads off and shove them up their bum.
:o)
First I'm doing some research on the shop and finding out the names of the owner and stuff so I can go to him directly and they can't get around it...cuz I won't give them a chance to.
I am also looking up Ezekiel 25:17 as said by one of my all time favorite actors....Samuel Jackson and lay some God given wisdom down on these troglodytes, because I think it's very fitting to the situation. I just won't be holding a gun to their head while I do it cuz....I won't need one.
*BIG SMILE*
They have no idea what they've released....but believe me when I tell you...they're going to find out real quick that today is not the mf'ing day and I am NOT the mf'ing one they want to F with. Kay?
I'm cool though...I'm cool. No worries. Maybe I won't use that verse anyways....they probably wouldn't understand anyways even if I explained it's meaning in very small words so their tiny man minds could possibly grasp even part of it.
No....I'm gonna let the focus be on making them very aware of their multiple mistakes, making them take accountability for their actions both before and after the car caught fire and then apologize for everything.
That's all I really want. I could care less about the money and everything else....but they WILL apologize for nearly getting me killed and for being so completely unnecessarily disrespectful of my husband. I will NOT let that slide. And since I don't have any intention of phoning to alert them of our coming....we should very well catch them off guard because I'm sure as I know who I am....that they would never expect ME to stand up to THEM and tell them that what they did was wrong and that they need to be more careful before they do something that causes someone to have more than just an electrical car fire.
That's not so hard is it? For them to admit that they were wrong and for the way they treated myself and my husband? Is it unreasonable of me to just simply request an admission of guilt due to negligence and an apology? Cuz that's ALL I want.
*sigh* I know...I make a point not to discuss my personal beliefs on here too much....or get all....I don't know...preachy? But....I could have easily been blown up in a firey flaming ball of death yesterday...and coming to grips with that is....well...it's difficult in some ways. But I just felt like I needed to say something about why it took until today for stuff to affect me or why I seem to have such faith sometimes....it was days like yesterday that help renew and revive my resolve and my strength and realize....realize that I am NOT alone...not ever. That there were guiding and loving arms all around and about me yesterday...seeing me through everything I went through...cuz I tell ya right now...I could NOT have done that on my own.
I am no where near perfect...and I hope that people don't just see the surface of me when I'm talking...but I'm only human. I am NOT infallible...but there is ONE who is and I fully believe that He was with me so closely yesterday and that's why I scared off that nut job...or I didn't really but....I can't explain it...but when...when he said that to me....something just sorta....I don't know....came through me. Does that make sense? It's just....the voice...the voice that came through me was not my own...and I KNOW it wasn't mine. I know we all have our own ways and own beliefs and I'm totally down with that and respect that....I just felt the need to share a little bit of what yesterday was really like for me. I hope it didn't come out sounding stupid or anything.
It may just be the meds talking now....but I truly FELT a presence with me. I can't explain away not getting blown up to bits when there were HOT ashes pouring out of the car while I was driving. I just can't...and I don't have to cuz I know who kept me safe.
Okay...I promise I'm not done with all the crazy long posts. I just had to get it out of my system. Thank you for understanding and thinking I'm some kind of crazy lunatic. I love ALL my brothers So so so so so so much. So very much. I would hug every single one of you RIGHT the hells now....if I could, but I can't....so just know how much you all mean to me.
Now that....is all.
Okay....ya know what? No....no I'm not going down there....no I'm not giving those...people another thought or bit of my energy. They are not worth it and going down there to demand satisfaction would do nothing but enrage me again and since I have already found my inner peace...I'm not gonna just give that away or any of my energy to some troglodytes that can't even spell Chrysler.
They're not worth my inner peace.
Besides....doing that wouldn't change any of the facts like...no one got blowed up in the vehicle or abducted and we both made it home safely. And there is nothing more important than that to me.
I'm okay....but it might be a while before I can post in game again. I'm sorry, but these pain meds have my head all.....I don't know what....so I don't want to post under the influence and want to wait until I'm myself again. Is that okay? I'm so so sorry I'm holding things up....but my brain isn't in a good headspace for now and I need time for sense to return to me.
I love you all though and I hope you know that.
Hope everything levels out soon. Glad you're okay.
*nods and hugs* Going back to work tomorrow. I've missed my babies.
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I need my "kid fix" Lol
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The side-story repository is now open.
Awesome!
Gotta take a shower and loosen up those muscles some more so the kids can go back to crawling all over me again tomorrow. Lol
Also...I'm sorry if I've been sounding....crazy....or whatever? I just...just trust me when I say...it's been a rough couple of days.
Man.....I am tired.
NIck? Nick are you okay? Just wondering if you're alirght.