Flames of the Wicked (Inactive)

Game Master Fallen_Mage

Your standard discussion forum. *suppressing grin*

So we're resetting to level 1 right?

Yep

Hello fellow inmates and welcome to your new home.

It's only our home temporarily. I ain't staying in any yucky ol' prison. I'm just biding my time, yep...biding my time. Just gotta wait for thed stupid humans to make a mistake, then WHAM! They won't know what hit em'.

I'm really worn out so I may not answer stuff right away, but I'll do my best. It's gonna take my body a few weeks to adjust to the new job.

I'll get everything modified and post within the next 24 hours.

Getting ready to walk into work now. Hope everyone has a good night.

Sorry if I seem a bit slow at posting, I'm trying not to get too far ahead for Mark to not have a say in anything.

It's okay. I'm hurting and sleepy so I try to sleep now.

It sounds like he's had a crazy week so it's all good.

Finally done. Sorry for the hold up Nick

Am really stressed out about tonight since there's just two of us with Cookie on vacation now. I just don't know how I'm gonna do it...but I am, until I find something else. I just have to accept that I can't do the things I used to do before UAMS broke me. I'm just gonna watch some anime and try to relax so I can at least get a nap in before they try to kill me.

Hope you feel better soon.

It's already after 2:30. Most of it isn't too bad. It's the getting my 7 people dressed and out of bed that I'm worried about. Pulling on those heavy people is what's killing me.

What the hell....I must have been tired. Have to go back to dr. Might have repulsed something in my back.

Got an appointment for 4. Gonna see what he says. Wish me luck.

Good Luck

Thanks

Torodol shot, brain fuzzy. Prolly no more posty tonight.

Okay, just enough to say what Dr. said. So like I messed up my hip joint and shoulder. He said is was a Right SI joint dysfunction and shoulder something something something since I couldn't read the rest of his writing. I got the toradol shot and he put in a high dose steroid pill to help with the inflamation, and more muscle relaxers to relax the muscles. He put me off till Tues....but I'm not gonna risk hurting myself again or causing harm to a resident, so when I take the note to her on Monday I gonna tell her that I can't perform my job duites safely and therefore won't be coming back, and that I'm sorry it's at such a bad time, but that I have to do what's best for me and the residents. I can sub at the school until I find something else once I'm healed up and that I'll be bringing in a little something to help us out so Henry doesn't feel like he needs to work 50 hours a week to keep us afloat.

I swear you have the worst kind of luck.

Wow. Sorry kiddo. Rest as much as you can.

Medicine wore off, pain woke me up.

I'm sorry if my posts seem lengthy, and I hope they at least make sense. It's just so hard to think right now.

I'm trying so hard to go back to sleep, but it hurts no matter what position I try to sleep in.

I'm sleepy again, this medicine really messes me up.

I gotta go back to bed. I'm just hurting xnd tired.

Made chicken tacos andc black beans tonight. It was yummy aznd pretty filling, and right now I think I gotg my pain dowsn to a manageable level, sfo I'm gonna try to get some sleep.

Sorry, last couple days have been pretty crazy and had a deadline to meet, will post a bit later and should be back to normal.

Just hope you get some rest at some point.

I'm tired and hurting, but not as much as my poor Boobear who was at work till 6 tonight. He got to work like 30 minutes late, but I don't think he should even get the half point for being late since he stayed so late. There's nothing that can be done though unless the assistant manager shows up from wherever the hell she ran off to in order tyo fix it. No one has seen her for a couple days so they don't know if she's on vacation or what.

I made chicken tacos aznd black beans again, and made sure the meat was cooked before hed got home so all I'd have to do is season and prepare thed meat for our fried meat pies. While thef meat was cooling so I could shred it, I rubbed my poor baby's feet with some eucalyptus and spearment oil I have, and then after washing my hands thoroughly, finished preparing dinner while he took a shower. T least we finished eating before 8.

Now he's just playing some wrestling aznd trying to relax before bed. I need to take some more flexeril and go tuo bed soon too. I used up a lot of energy worrying about my sweet Boobear today. Sorry or thed rambling....

So Cindy, Matt, and the girls are back in Arkansas now. It's the first time I've actually had anytime to spend with them, so I've got my Tater Tot over here with me for the next couple of days. I can only handle one of them at a time now because they're at that age. LOL

Abby is 9, and Tator Tot is 10. Well, she'll actually be 11 the 26th of next month, so I wanted to let everyone know that I may not be on very much until after she goes home Saturday Afternoon. Henry is working through Saturday and being home alone all the time isn't helping me get better any faster. Tatum helps me do things around here and she helped me with the shopping earlier....A LOT. I love my little munchkin lots and lots and I don't know when I'll get to have this time with her again.

Just wanted to give everyone a heads up.

Sounds like a fun time. Enjoy it.

Thanks. Busy busy busy day, now back homed tho make corn beef cabbage stew.

I think I plum tuckered out my little Tator Tot...well not quite so little anymore. She laid down on the couch while I was getting stuff set up and fell asleep around 2. She's been having a really rough time with the changes in weather, pollen, Dr's...so I'm just gonna let her sleep. Hopefully, it will be long enough so I can get caught up in some things. My brain has just been feeling kinda blah lately with everything going on and all the medicine, but I will try not to hold things up too much.

Okay, my tater tot is back home and it's nice and quiet again, so before my night time medicine kicks in I'll try to explain what's going on and the plan we kinda came up with...regarding my working and back and everything...well, it's not just my back, but you know what I mean.

So, after a lot of thinking and talking with my sister who's a nurse, and Henry and another friend of mine, Ms. Helen...I have come up with a strategy to try and get things back in working order cuz this being in pain all the time and not getting any sleep and just feeling miserable period is a bunch of bull$hit and I'm done with it.

So, first...talking to my sister who has also had many many issues with long standing pain, found out that the best course of action that will save us going through all the doctor crap and PT bills is for me to get a membership at LA Fitness which has a pool and a hot tub for me to do hydro therapy in. I can't work right now so I can go to the gym EVERY DAMN DAY for at least an hour starting out to get my muscles and joints and everything back in order. I've already spoken to someone there and voiced my concerns and what my goals are and I'm going over there tomorrow after we visit with his mom to get a tour and sign up and start working on my body right away. My primary concern is to repair as much of the damage as possible, my secondary goal is to lose between 50-75 lbs of this extra weight that is putting so much pressure on my ankles, knees, and other joints. I already have a degenerative spinal disease...I need to do everything I can to alleviate pressure. I'm probably gonna shell out a little extra and get a personal coach because they have one that's trained in Physical therapy and they can help me come up with a routine that's safe for me while still accomplishing my goals. That's phase one.

While all this is going on, it's probably gonna take at least three to four weeks to get my body back in good enough shape to go back to a job of any kind. Right now I'm in so much constant pain that there's no way I can describe it good enough. I am not going to be sitting idly by during this time by no means though. During my rehabilitative process, I will be calling Premier Pharmacy about a position that a friend of mine told me about that she thinks I'd be perfect for and I have experience in the medical office field so it's perfect. I would get to sit at a desk and put medication orders in the computer, take calls from nurses that are placing orders and confirm orders arrivals. She told me they start everyone at 12 an hour, but because of my experience they might bump it up to 14...but I just have to call them Monday and talk to them about it. She gave me their number. If it works out I'm going to need a pharmacy technician license which takes about three weeks to process, so it's perfect. I kinda feel bad about the strain this is gonna put on us financially....but we will get through it cuz the situation is only going to be temporary and once I get better and have a decent job it will get better. That's phase two.

In addition to the gym membership, my mom told me about this stuff called Glucosamine Chondroitin. It's supposed to help with joint support and stuff but it takes like three months to build up in the system, but then maybe I'll start feeling better.

I'm going to stick with my own therapy regime as my coach helps me progress toward my goals. Now...if after a month of therapy I don't feel like I'm getting better, or symptoms start getting worse...then I'll consult my doctor.

But yeah...that's pretty much the plan. Take my recovery in my hands and get a job that I can do without causing myself physical injury and that I can get some fulfillment out of. I'm still helping people by making sure that they get the correct medications so....I think it'll be okay.

Mark...thank you so much for talking me down last night/this morning....things have just been really really hard and even though I'm used to chronic pain....I've never had to deal with it on this level before.

I want to thank you, Andrew, and Nick...as well as my loving husband of course for being there for us and just listening to all my crazy ramblings and supporting and loving us. You're freindships have meant so much to us and have enriched us deeply. I don't know where I'd be without you guys, so from the bottom of my heart....Thank You.

I'm at least feeling a little more hopeful now that maybe there really was a silver lining around that dark ass cloud all along. And if I get to work at Premier Pharmacy, I'll get to work with my Sweet Ms. Helen again, so that makes me happy too. I'm feeling a lot better emotionally tonight than I have been even though I still feel a little manic. I can feel the meds starting to kick in though so I probably need to get a drink of juice and hit the whole sack....as long as it don't hit me back. Lol....I rhymed it.

You guys know I don't like taking pills....so you know it has to be really really really bad for me to take Hydro 7.5, promethazine (to keep me from getting sick from the hydro), flexeril to help relax the muscles, and a Lorazapam to help with the anxiety that being in all this pain causes. Not to mention how the damn steroids are affecting my hormones so I've been really emotional lately because when it's night time and my mind is finally getting quiet is when all those doubts and fears creep in. So...that's pretty much it. Get better, get my pharmacy tech license while I'm getting better, get good job at a place where I can feel fulfilled and not worry about having to break something else on me. Then we'll just take it a day at a time and see what happens. I gonna check the other games and then I go sleepy bye.

Always.

Soon....just a few minutes more and then I don't think my head will stay up on it's own. I am just so tired. We have to go out with his mom tomorrow after church because we won't be able to see her for Easter cuz we'll be out at my parents house. Henry and I are gonna take a change of stuff with us and go to the gym once we're done at his mom's house so we can get a tour and memberships and stuff. I'm gonna start tomorrow. I'm hurting so much I can't wait for Monday, the sooner the better.

Opportunity and a Plan. Not a bad place to start.

Nods, I feel a lot better about things now. It's hard to look at things with perspective sometimes when it feels like you're hip deep in quick sand. You haved to have friends and family willing to help pull you out.

We're gonna be going to his mom's house for a little while, and then he's taking me to the gym so I caxn get signed up and start right away on my therapy. Why put off till tomorrow, what I can do today. We'll bed back later.

Had lunch with his mom. At her house now. Henry and her are playing Scrabble while I wait for the pain relief to kick in so we can go to the gym this evening. I'm not waiting till tomorrow to start my therapy.

On our way to gym now.

Our famous luck continues. Just got into another accident because some stupid bit<h decided to run a red light when we had the green arrow and totalled the front end of our vehicle. Of course she doesn't have insurance so she gaved Henry 200 bucks. Ggggrrrrrr

Are you two okay? No injuries?

It just jarred my back a little more, but if Henry had been going any faster she would have hit him in the side and at the speed she was going....it would have been bad.

And after all thed work I did in the gym to loosen uop myh muscles. It just knocked out one of our lights, but it seems to be driving okay, and Henry shoved the light back in. He didn't want tuo call the cops orf insurance sinced she wasn't insured and our insurance would just go up again. I'm so damn sick of stupid people that can't afford to pay attention axnd I'm sick of them hitting us.

So now I get Dairy Queen for dinner and Mochi balls.

Ooooo, yummy.