Believe me....no one is as surprised as I am. At first I thought she was justf taking me somewhere private so she could wear me out without an audience or interference. I just....that reaction I was seriously not expecting, so kudos for totally catching me off guard.
A century is a long damn time to go without a connection to someone.
Yeah....I just...I don't know if I'm ready for something like that. I have my own stuff to deal with, and she needs time to really figure out what she's feeling. We're not leaving right away, so she won't be alone for the moment at least. I'm not sure I'm good at that kind of stuff...I just don't know....I'm not upset, I just don't know what to make of it just right now.
It totally threw me for a loop, in more ways than one.
I'm not feeling good this morning. I think it's a combination of not enough sleep, and too much food last night.
Try to get some more rest
I'm trying to, it's just hard when it keeps feeling like stuff is trying to come up. I'm supposed to go to the bank to close out our savings account this morning....but I just don't know if I can handle going out into the heat to do it. I'm feeling really sick.
Well that went completely different than I expected. It will be interesting to see how this develops.
@ Henry - That ever happen where an NPC seems to take on a life of its own?
Uh...yeah. It only happens all the time. Lol I don't even...I don't know either. It's the first time anyone has shown her real affection of any kind...that's gonna be kinda hard not to talk about. It'll probably be obvious by her body language though. They may not know what happened, but they'll know "something" happened. Eri won't tell them though if she doesn't want her to. She doesn't want to betray her trust, that's more important to her than her own feelings.
Ravan might pick up on it.
I wouldn't doubt it for a moment. Lol
I'm just not feeling very well today.
@ Henry - That ever happen where an NPC seems to take on a life of its own?
More often than not.
Don't worry Eri, it will make sense in due time.
Just...in the meantime it feels like she's ashamed of me or something, and that she was just using me. I'm having all these stupid feelings that I'm not used to having and I don't know what to do with them. I'm not good at stuffing things down, or hiding my feelings....and on top of that I'm not even allowed to talk about it to try and make sense of anything. So, it's just all right there under the surface, just bubbling away.
Even if it wasn't her intention, and even if she has a good reason for acting like a cold fish now, she hurt Eri.
Okay, Eri has been hurt a lot. She's used to it. She isn't used to someone showing her tenderness, compassion, or any other real feelings even remotely related to love or attraction, and then turn their back on her. That's almost worse than a beating. Eri probably would have just preferred that Tehanna hit her than pretend to have feelings for her one minute, and nothing the next.
Can you maybe see why this is so upsetting and confusing for Eri? She's still young and this is the first time anyone has shown her any real affection....and then they act like that. How would it make you feel if you were in my position?
If she keeps treating Eri like she's a thing of convenience, she won't have to worry about explaining in "due time" cuz I'll just shut down. I deserve better than to be someone's plaything.
I 100% get it. I was just reassuring you as a player that she isn't manipulating you.
Not that it didn't cross my mind, but I decided to go a different route.
I know that, and you know that...but Eri doesn't, and right now she's hurting in a way she's never hurt before. The scars that she bears all over her body, are nothing compared to what this is doing to her heart.
That is why she's sitting away from everyone right now, crying quietly to herself, because she doesn't know that. She's just trying not to make any real noise because she doesn't want them to know because Tehanna asked her not to say anything. None of this makes any sense to her at all.
I need to take the dog outside, I should probably try to eat something, and I need to take a shower.
When have I ever had a statue attack?
Not you specifically, but it's happened before so I'm not putting it past you to do the same. You just hate that I can see how your devious little mind works. Lmao
Not always though...some things catch me off guard still.
It should probably occur to Eri that she wanted to keep their exchange private so she wouldn't act different in front of the others.
I don't know if she would though. She doesn't even understand what she's feeling right now, she can't even begin to infer what Tehanna is feeling. She doesn't haved the intelligence or wisdom to work that out in her head. Right now, all she knows is that Tehanna doesn't want the others to know what happened and not being of a duplicitous nature, Eri doesn't know how to deal with that. She just thinks that there's something wrong with her, or that Tehanna is embarrassed or ashamed of whast sxhed did with her, as small as it seemed. It's a matter of perspective.
The problem here, is that we are dealing with feelings...not logic. The two simply do not go together.
I have to look at it like this, she has a past full of people that have used her. It's all she knows, so by Tehanna wanting to keep her a secret it brings up all those old feelings of shame and being used. Her experiences are very limited, so she just has to go off of what she knows.
*nudge*
Huh?
Just making sure people can still see this game update.
They're probably just busy. I think Mark is off Sunday and Monday, but they have a lot of serious life stuff going on right now, and who knows what Andrew is dealing with. Everyone has stuff sometimes though, so we just have to be patient and wait. I'm sure they'll post as soon as they get a chance.
Paizo has been acting funny lately too. I don't know about you, but it keeps telling me there's new posts when there isn't, and it doesn't always notify me of actual new posts.
Paizo has been acting funny lately too. I don't know about you, but it keeps telling me there's new posts when there isn't, and it doesn't always notify me of actual new posts.
And that's what I was checking.
Well, I don't know if it's acting up for them or not. That's just what it's been doing to me.
And me, so it's not a stretch to think it's hitting them too.
It might be
Yeah, you certainly weren't making it easy.
Not sure if I'm up to reading 23 posts right now.
Yeah, you certainly weren't making it easy.
Who...me? Why, whatever do you mean? *innocent smile*
Henry had a really long and busy day at the bank, so he's a little tired and cranky. I haven't fed him yet cuz we had to go do stuff after he got home.
Since poisons have been mentioned, but not afflicted as of yet, I wanted to double check, have I mentioned that I'm using the Poison and Disease rules from Pathfinder Unchained?
No, you have not. I don't even know what that means.
Basically, poisons and diseases are much deadlier. But it swings both ways, NPC's are just a susceptible as you are. Perhaps even more so.
Oh good grief, well, if we die we die.
Well, depending on the poison. Some don't actually kill, just render you unable to fight. And for most to kill you, you'd have to fail a Fort Save like 6 times in a row. Statistically, unlikely.
MMmmmm....riiiiight. Then why use it? I'm just trying to understand your reasoning here.
Don't mind me if I seem a little Bi+<#y or whiny...I've been cramping really bad and it's making my back injury flare up and hurt like hell. It's hard for me to think about anything realistically or clearly right now, so you just kinda have to take whatever I say with a grain of salt right now.
I need to go get a shower and deal with my hair because we have somewhere we have to be this evening from like 6-8. We volunteered to help out with a kids program this week for our Church and the surrounding neighborhood. There's lots of kids and they need lots of help. It's only kindergarten through 6th grade though, so not so bad. It's kinda like a VBS thing, but only five nights...though that means Henry and I are gonna be super busy this week and we may not have a lot of time for these games except for a short time in the evening after we get back.
I got an eamil from this car insurance company that I applied for a receptionist type position with and they want to do a video interview over the internet kinda thing. I'm gonna try and do that tomorrow, hopefully I won't be hurting so bad then. It's hard for me to think when I'm feeling like this.
Anyways, I haven't been sleeping well cuz of all the pain so I'm sorry in advance if I'm a tired, grumpy, pain in the ass.
Because it makes poisons and diseases scarier, more realistic in a lethal sense, and if any of you wish to use a poisoned weapon, makes it that much more effective.
nah....I don't mess with poison. We'll just have to make sure we have a way of curing it if it happens to one of us, and we'll have to get better at killing our opponents quicker, before they have a chance to do so. Things could get....messy.
Just...don't mind me. I got my shower, but I'm still feeling icky.
Andrew, anything to add? If not, I'll move things along.