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When I first got introduced to RPGs, it was love at first sight. I got to pick everything about a custom made character that I got to act out and make decisions that directly changed the story! I was 15 or 16 and every aspect of gaming had me enthralled. Like playing a new video game, everything was new and enchanting... there was actual magic in the air every time I played. I liked to sit around and make character after character just to make them, even if they'd never actually get played. I didn't know a lot about rules and didn't bother learning more than I needed to know to play the game on a basic level. I never worried about how powerful my character was... I played a given concept because I thought it sounded neat. Now, a few years shy of 20 years later I find myself far more blase about RPGs in general. Am I outgrowing them, or is it that because I immerse myself in the rules so much in any system I play in, I've become detached from the very thing I fell in love with about RPGs in the first place? I just don't get -excited- about games in the same way I did when I was younger. Has this happened to anyone else? If so, why do you think it happens?

Yeah it sounds a little familiar, Ive spent the last ten years on this(the-elite.net) so trying to get into tabletop based rpgs sounds cool. But its hard for me because I'm not much into socializing and trying to put an image in your head of something going on such as fighting or moving in an underground environment is the same thing as reading a book.