What is your name?
Belroar Davhand the Third. I was named for my father, and his father before him. I fear that the name shall die with me, but I am honored to bear it nonetheless.
How old are you?
As much as the knowledge pains me, I am already 47 years old. My father died just shy of forty; it makes me wonder what time I have left myself.
Do you have any personal goals? What are they?
If only I did have a goal. To know where to go with my life, to know what's out there for me...that is my goal. Just to find my place in the world before my moment has passed.
Who is your best friend?
Despite my time in this city, I have never truly cultivated very many attachments. My stay here was always planned to be temporary. At least I've been telling myself that for more than twenty years. I would say I have grown close to Victor. He used to run a tavern here in the city, but that was almost a decade ago before he went out of business. Now he's running with some sort of merchant caravan, and I see him for only a few days every couple of months. It's not a bad arrangement, though. We're able to catch up during that time and it gives me something to look forward to on those days when the world is looking its bleakest. I know some other guys who work for the Pathfinder Guild, but I've never grown particularly close to any of them. They take their jobs far more seriously than I do, but for me its just somewhere I am I my life until I can move on.
Who is your most potent ally?
The Gods. Or whoever gifted me with these powers. I have spent my life training them for the day I find out my true purpose in life, and some days this power is the only thing that keeps me going. Without it, I would be just another man. I depend largely on myself, and though I've certainly earned a few favors over the years, I need no help. Wherever my path is taking me, it takes me there alone.
Who is your greatest enemy?
Death? The specter I see over my shoulder at every second, creeping closer to me with each passing day to take my life before I've ever even truly lived it? But no, I suppose my real enemy would have to be "Finicky" Trent. When I first arrived in the city, I borrowed a few hundred silvers from him to live off of until I could find a proper job. When I found myself unable to make good on my debt, Trent offered me another deal. A job. I jumped at the opportunity, with no idea what I had gotten myself into.
I worked for him for the better part of 20 years to pay off my debt, and when I finally got out Trent promised me he would make my life hell. And that he did, finding work since then has been an almost impossible task in this city, and the only place I can turn to anymore for work is the Pathfinder Guild.
Have you ever killed anyone? Who?
I've killed more people than I can count, and it's gotten easier over the years. I take no pleasure in it, but by this point I have just come to accept that it's a part of life. You can't have death without life.
The first though, I can still remember the first man I killed. It was back when I was first working for Trent...I wouldn't say the memory haunts me, but those cold, dead eyes feature prominently in many a sleepless night.
What is your most prized possession?
This dagger...it belonged to my father, and it bears the seal of our house on the handle. It's by far the most valuable thing I still own, but I could never sell it. It's the only thing I have left of that past life, and I even if I could go back, I doubt I would. But it is important to remember, and so I carry this blade with me wherever I go.
What is your most closely guarded secret?
I suppose one thing I've never told yo anyone before is...that prophecy. When I was much younger, I met a priest who told me I had a destiny before me, that I would achieve great things in my lifetime. My family never knew the reason I wasn't content where I was, but it was that prophecy, the knowledge that there would be far more to my life than what they wanted for me. They would have laughed, but I knew the truth. And there's still something out there for me, I know it.
Do you owe any debts? What are they?
Money. When I was younger I had never wanted for money, I had everything I could need and more. It was hard, adapting to a new lifestyle like I did. I am ashamed to admit how much I borrowed, those first few years. It's made the years hell for me, and I still owe hundreds to series of money lenders across this city. I was a young man, and foolish, so now I must pay the price for it in my waning years.
Do you have any old grudges? What are they?
I have never really forgiven my brother, Braden. I would gladly have given up the family holdings to him, but the manner in which he inherited them after my father's death while I was away, and how he treated me upon my return...I have little love for him. And though I care for the rest of my family, my sister who I recently learned has had a third child, my mother who grows older every day, it is because of my brother that I rarely see them anymore.
What is your single greatest regret?
My greatest regret is ending up where I am now. Half a lifetime and I have next to nothing to show for it. It's not that I've made a series of bad decisions to put myself where I am today, I just haven't made any decisions at all. I've taken no risks, done nothing spectacular that I can look back on with fondness. I know I still have time, some time at least, to become something more. I hope.
Of what accomplishment are you most proud?
Despite where I am now, I still think that leaving was the best decision of my life. I have lived off of what I can earn with my own two hands, and I have seen much and more of the world than I ever could have if I had let myself stay tied down. Life hasn't been easy, but it shouldn't be. I have to work through the hard times to get to the good, and the good has been a long time coming.