Obviously, I've been having issues again. Just want you all to know that I'm still thinking of you guys and the game and everything involved. I went to Brunei and they didn't have any internet! It was sadface.
However, it should also be noted, as I'm struggling at the moment, that I'm clinically and cyclically depressed - though the desire to post and my love of you guys and your characters and the game remains, a lot of my energy and will to actually do the things I genuinely want to do is gone. I think about the games, I read the materials over and over, and I genuinely want to talk to everyone, but I can't make myself sign on or write. I am constantly frustrated by myself, sitting and playing pointless bejeweled games when I know this is waiting for me.
I just can't describe it any better than that.
I am here and settled again with a Visa for another 30 days so hopefully I will be more regular. I understand if anyone doesn't really want to deal with a probably sporadic game as I try to get back into my routines and patch myself up.
All that said, I'm fighting hard for this hobby of mine that probably literally saved my life in the last bad patch I went through.
And yeah, I get that this might be needlessly melodramatic, but I wanted to get it out there. I owe you all that much.
~L
No worries, we are always here.
This sentiment will come from me in several threads, Lexi, but I don't mind saying it more than once. We're happy to have you here and I'm happy to help carry you however you need. I look forward to the next time you're able to come out and play. If you need to take your time with everything, do so. If you need to throw caution to the wind and submerge yourself in the game again, so be it. Do whatever will help you stay healthy and happy.
Echoing Tierce for truth. We are always here.
You are super ultra way too awesome, which means you get to take as long as you want to come back. Even Super Ultra Way Too Awesome people have trouble taking on the CR58 Depression Beast. AND at that kind of CR it is okay to ask for a little help, which we are indubitably willing to give.
Ugh, sorry guys! I have my computer, hero lab, and my pdfs, and I'm all good to go. Sadly a friend was in the hospital yesterday with some health scares the day before, or this would have been sooner. Sorry!
RAWRRRRRRRRR. INTERNET. GRRRR. Stupid Thai internet. Anyway. I'm here.
I ... am assuming we're calling this dead. Yes/No?
I would say yes...
There is another opportunity to apply to a CotCT game.
I hope you guys take it. :/
I decided against that one.
my character was incomplete becuase of the "interview process" to get in.
DM wanted a concept but I was not in the format requested. and backstory was to long also had a complete character sheet and thatw as not asked for also failed to provide a writing sample. So I decided way too much to deal with at the moemnt.