Gamemaster Zimovat Vyetyer |
A little question for the GM from me.
Would it be possible to handle bloodrage like an unchained barbarian rage?
It's a little less bookkeeping, making things a bit easier, but no big change.
Sure, I am all for less bookkeeping in a PbP game.
Gamemaster Zimovat Vyetyer |
Alright, better than my last stretch but not as good as I want it to be.
Good news is that I'll be filing the final Divorce paperwork tomorrow. Then a meeting with the Judge and that'll be behind me!
Storyteller Shadow |
It’s pretty late at night as I am writing this. I’ve been through a significant amount of struggles through the past two years (actually through the past 41 but especially the past 2). I’ve had worse stretches of time before but I believe that these past struggles were due to my own lack of maturity and self-awareness at the time those events took place.
Likely those events were necessary for me to experience to survive the events of the past two years and get through them as well as I have. Physical ailments, getting older and requiring more sleep, bankruptcy, and ultimately divorce. You know life is not going swimmingly when going to work feels like a vacation.
Regardless, when I first started getting involved in PbP on the boards it was a chance to play, finally! I’d been DMing for the bulk of the time that I’ve played table top that I was enjoying being able to be a player for once. Then with so many damn flaky GM’s I just started running games and well, things snow balled from there.
Life was fairly stable at the time the normal ups and downs. Then about two years ago, I started getting into PbP as a way to escape reality. Sort of the same ways drugs were casual and enjoyable for me as a teen and ultimately led me as close to suicide as I ever want to get again.
I am not saying that PbP has made me suicidal but I am saying that I recognize that I was using PbP as a coping mechanism to avoid a bad marriage. PbP did NOT lead to the failure of my marriage but it did contribute to my ability to tune it out.
I make a decent living but between bankruptcy and divorce I’ve little to show for it (well except for this killer book and RPG collection ). I could point the finger at my soon to be ex-wife but when you point one finger at a person, three more point back at you. I could have prevented things from becoming this bad and I chose not to. I did it, ironically, because I believed that if I had the marriage would have ended and ended badly, so much for best intentions. I am not going to second guess myself, what happened happened. As divorces go, this one has been rather amicable as we have put our daughter first and ourselves second.
Being married to someone who makes as much if not more money then you (depending on sales that year) places one in a position to “take it easy” when it comes to being aggressive about making money (well it placed me in such a position anyhow perhaps because making money does not move me).
Early on in my career I had an opportunity to become a premiere M&A Financial Services Tax Attorney in a Big 4 Firm. It’s a big deal and potentially a lot of money but I did not really want it because I knew I would be working a lot and traveling a lot. My ex agreed that I should turn it down as she did not want to be married to a workaholic and that was not who I wanted to be anyway. Nor do I want to be that person now. (In yet another twist of irony, she has become a workaholic, funny how things turn out).
I do not regret the decision though I do lament the loss of income that such a decision would have brought to me.
All of this rambling nonsense is leading to the point of this post, I need to work more. Not at my current job nor do I want to get a new job, I actually like being there as odd as that sounds (to me). I need to get a second and perhaps a third job, side gigs. At 41 about to turn 42 with no retirement and no savings for my daughters college, I can no longer hope that the ex’s business will come through as an investment plan. Even if it does, I will not be the beneficiary of that largesse. I need to make up for 11 years of being “comfortable” simply working.
Thus, it is with heavy heart that I am announcing that I will need to close down a number of the threads I run and withdraw from a number of the games I am a PC in.
I suppose this decision will not be a surprise to many of you as my posting rates have been abysmal since these events took a turn for the worse (in some respects the better to be honest) since Thanksgiving of 2017.
I am not generally a person that feels remorse or guilt but I do feel a level of disappointment with having to make this decision. I apologize for disappointing many of you who put work into PCs relying on my consistency as a GM/DM over the course of the past several years.
My plan had always been to run a hardcore dose of RPG’s until my daughter was a teenager and then, spend my free time writing the novel I had been working on since before she was born. I had hoped that over the next 9 years or so I could wrap up most of these campaigns and the few that remained would be more manageable.
Life has not worked out that way.
The good news is that I will still run several games but the current load is too much for me to handle in this transition. The further good news is that I believe this will allow for those games to move along much more quickly.
By tomorrow I will have made my decision as to which games I will keep and which I will shut down.
Thank you all for taking the journeys with me despite the lack of length or resolution of so many of them.
I will still be around just in a diminished capacity so this is not goodbye just a “be seeing less of you”.
Satu Varis |
Oh wow. I' fairly new in your games, but had already wondered about the amount of games. I don't mind a slow pace, since that's what suits most adults with a life, job and family best i guess from my own experience.
I'm sorry to hear that story and hope things will turn out better for you.
Probably a lot of people use RPGs in any form as escapism and like with all escapism, the dose has to be watched so it stays relaxing, but doesn't become a burden onto your life.
Hopefully you can find the balance for yourself!
Aerin Aurora |
I've been with your games since the beginning, and as the numbers grew I became worried. I'm glad you have made this decision.
Do not feel bad. You don't owe anyone a game. Every player will understand that your life and health come first.
Freyr Elvanna |
I always thought that the number of games you were running was a bit extreme. If it's interfering with real life, that just makes it all the more troublesome. Don't worry about us, just take care of yourself.
Storyteller Shadow |
Thanks for the support guys.
Unfortunately, this is one of the games that I will need to close.
As this is an AP, you may be able to find a replacement DM. My deepest apologies to those of you who just joined considering how fast things came to and end.
Good luck and good gaming all.
Freyr Elvanna |
I'm not surprised unfortunately. I would be willing to try with another GM, but I'm not sure they could keep up with quality. Shadow is so good it's hard to match.
Satu Varis |
Yes me too.
Satu Varis |
Any plans on how to handle this?
How do we want to find a new GM? Post something in recruitment or somebody knows someone?
Frjya Elvanna |
Alright my friends, those who wish to carry on I ask that you post here! As there are so many of us, I would like our GM to know how many do wish to continue.
Satu Varis |
Some time has passed, Kobolum mentioned posting here, anyone else still on board?
Frjya Elvanna |
Okay! First let me apologize that this took so long! But here is it.
The fine the carrage, finding only ice and death. They split up one group checks out the South Road while the other deal with the carrage. The South Road find a moss troll that they have to deal with while those at the carriage deal with undead.
The keep moving and find the trapped chest and find out it is trapped. They get the items before the move on coming across a white talking horse! It leads them to a talking snowman! That is just magic... The continue and find ice elementals, it is now that the talking horse turns out to be an ice fairy who attacks before flying off. The group wins against the elementals but does have to turn back as they are worn thin.
They return the next day to find bandits waiting for them who wish to take the Elvanna twins and will not harm the others if they leave without them. They say no, fight breaks out. The group wins, question one of the banits whom they let go after they get all the information about the lodge.
They move on and come across another group of bandits however now knowing that they wish to take the twins alive, Frjya sets out of the bushes from where she was hiding to offer a bit of a distraction and away to get inside the lodge without a fight.
Now this summary does not include the newest add because they have just been watching what is recently going on and we've not interacted with them yet.
Kobolum |
Okay so I read the summary and looking over the discussion and from what I understand that these are the characters that are still in the campaign:
• Frjya Elvanna
• Zeylud
• Noxuria "Nox" Pembrook
• Freyr Elvanna
• Satu Varis
• Lanyssa
Everyone else has left the campaign or we assume has left the campaign. That said they'll be treated as NPCs until I can find a way to get rid of them, so I need to bot them. But from what I can tell it's just Grievous Norn & Grey Eht, so if somebody could tell me if anyone else is there that would be great.
Satu Varis |
I think it was 2 groups á 4 PCs, makes 8 overall, so that should be all.
Aerin Aurora |
I'm not sure who has the ability to edit the campaign info tab, but if you could remove me from the active players list I'd appreciate it.
Lanyssa |
...without even a single sense motive check, what great role play this is.-_-
Mum always said it's not nice to roll against other PCs.
Satu Varis |
Yes.
Satu Varis |
That bonded mind teamwork feat is pretty cool, that's a real good idea!
I could imagine me and perhaps other players getting that as well during the course of this game, if you wouldn't mind^^
Freyr Elvanna |
Technically, it's from the Distant Shores book. It's part of a feat chain for a sort of pseudo-cult movement called the Iridian Fold from Vudra. They have this practice where two members (always one warrior and one caster) bond so closely that they can essentially work as one person. We got the okay to use it to represent the bond between two twins of an incredibly powerful magic user having an abnormally powerful connection, even for twins.
Satu Varis |
Too bad that we don' have a seducer witch here :)