I'm writing this post to apologize with you all about my behavior. I've been badly ill, then depression kicked in, and left you all by yourselves because I couldn't find the guts to face you and tell you that this adventure was over. I failed you, and for that I hate myself.
Today I've found some courage to write these few words to let you know that I'm alive, although not well. Depression is devouring me from the inside, and aside from that I'll most probably undergo surgery this Autumn because of my nose-related problems.
I don't feel I'm strong enough yet to don the mantle of GM once again, but I'm trying to get back into the hobby to try and fight against my mental illness. I'm going to see also some experts, see if maybe changing my meds will help, I don't know.
Again, I'm sorry for what I have done to you, how I treated you. I don't ask for your forgiveness, I don't deserve it, I just wanted to close this failed attempt at GMing and let you know that.
I hope you all will find better people then me to have fun with in the world of TTRPGs.