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Long and short of it is, if you aren't having fun, take a break until you start to Jones for it again. Don't let obligation control you.

I'm committed to two more games. Then I will take a break. Still play.

I will say lately I haven't GMed as much because of other commitments, but one thing that has changed is a change from the 'early days' when the community was smaller and everything was new and I was sometimes essential.

Realizing that this time is past is I guess what is important.

I am considering taking a break from GMing and/or quitting.

I have been GMing and playing for three years and have GMed in four venues plus local cons. This is in part because I have strong ethic toward community building and was always willing to step in, help out, volunteer etc. I stepped in on several occasions when no GM was available with little notice. I can proudly say that one store has PFS because a few of us stayed willing to GM.

But I've come to the conclusion that I was never the greatest GM and don't think I can be the greatest GM. I've had my share of moments of greatness. But I've also had sessions where nothing clicked, the players seemed bored etc.

I also think the moments of mediocrity are becoming more common and at the same time, the standard of GMing is getting better locally and I don't feel I'm keeping up.

I don't see eye to eye with the current VC. It's not a matter of animosity, but not seeing things simularly, not having the same priorities etc.

I have some social ticks that have contributed to arguments with people in the community, some of which were needless and stupid. While I am still welcomed and liked (mainly) I don't feel I have the esteem I've had in the past. This I have earned.

So my question is, both for myself and others, when do you decide to put step away from the GM screen and being very involved and becoming just another player?

I will simply say this. I have seen the process of dealing with VO who many thought was out of bounds in their behavior. I will only say that the process was transparent to those involved, fair, and any parties who were out of line were given ample chances to make corrections.

I will not discuss it further because these things Mike & have chosen to to deal with privately, and rightly so IMHO.