I really really gotta try to get to bed at a decent time tonight. I'm practically delerious.
I'm just so tired.....
Didn't get up till 7:02, got out the door by 7:20, and got to work at 7:42.
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Put more stuff away at the house. It's feeling more like home by the minute, and we actually ate our first meal in our new house. I am so incredibly happy.
Well, we had to put one of our cats down yesterday. He suddenly had just gone blind and lost like 90% of his hearing just out of the blue. We think it might have been hypertension brought on by his thyroid issue. It was his time, and he knew it. He wasn't even acting like himself.
Really sorry to hear that. Was he really old?
Putting down Ella was one of the hardest things we ever had to do.....but sometimes we have to put our own feelings aside, and do what's nest for them.
I could have kept taking her to the vet, but I didn't want her to suffer any more.
She was our baby for 15 years, and even though she's been gone almost a year now....we still miss her. I think about it all the time, and keep asking myself....if we had noticed what was happening to her sooner....would we have been able to save her, or was it just something that was inevitable? I try not to think about the "what ifs", but it's really hard sometimes not to.
I wish...I wish we could have given her a yard to play in before she passed....but we couldn't....that's just one more thing I feel guilty about.
It's been a year to the day today...
He was 18 and a half.
I'm so sorry, but that's a good ling life.
Been super busy trying to get into the house. Most stuff is here now, just...boxes boxes and more boxes.
Parents have been here too, but in a lot of ways, that just makes it more stressful.
I'm hurting so much, hard to sleep. Gotta try....
Sylvia's husband passed away Saturday night.
Even though she thought his vital signs were looking better, his liver had just too many problems, and once things go past a certain point, it's really hard to come back from that.
His kidneys shut down like Friday night or so, and then he passed away. There were just a whole lot of things going on, and he's been really sick off and on for a while now....but that doesn't make it any easier.
Just...if you guys could, just please keep Sylvia and their 3 kids in y'alls thoughts.
I really need to try to sleep sleep now.
Sorry, I've just had so much on my mind.
Don't know when we'll have internet again so...we'll post when we can.
So, something showed up on that stupid ultra sound I had done afterall.
Nurse called today and said that they found a fibroid or something, and the Dr wants to see me as soon as possible to talk about surgery options to remove it.
*sigh* I love that we got a house, but why does it feel like the trade off for that is that crap keeps happening to me? I shoulda never gone to the stupid dr.
It's just kind of been a difficult weekend, and I'm really feeling all the physical work we did.
I'm tired and hurting, but gonna try to go to sleep now.
Get some rest.
I will...I just needed time to relax. Had tho deal with a lotg of stuff today.
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I won an attendance contest/lottery thing at work. $400 in Internets money.
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Way to go Bubba!
So, the OBGYN is scheduling my surgery for sometime in the next 3-4 weeks. She only does surgeries on Tuesday, so it will be on a Tuesday, and she said that I might be able to go back to work on Friday, it just depends on what happens during surgery, and how I'm feeling by Thursday.
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I sleep so good at this new house. I fall asleep faster, and even when I have to get up in the middle of the night, I can go back to sleep so much easier.
It's so quiet here, I just love it.
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And that's how you know it's HOME.
Yeah, it's our home. Even after posting, as soon as I laid back down, I was asleep. The way the vents are in the house is weird, so we don't get heat coming into our bedroom, so it gets pretty cold in here, but that's nothing some blankets and a space heater can't fix.
I gotta get up, and get ready for work now.
Comcast is not being my friend. I still have no idea when we'll have internet at home.
Doubtful. They'll probably still try and charge you for the days you don't have service.
They haven't so far. I got an appointment with a technician for Wednesday afternoon.
That's good. Make sure to check that the first bill is prorated though
Soooo....we had our first home accident tonight. :'(
I was trying to get something from the top shelf in the closet, and the stupid box the oil diffuser and oils were in fell...I tried to catch it, but of course I'm sure you know what happened. The stupid stuff fell out of the box, and oil bottles broke spilling stupid oil everywhere, but the super stupid oil deffuser, the heavy as Hell one from WalHell that I just had to have cuz it was soooo pretty, fell right on the top of my foot. My right freaking foot....of course.
While I'm certain it didn't break anything, it hurt really bad. After I got done screaming, I hobbled to the bathroom and let cold water from the tub run over it.
It's a little swollen, and plenty bruised....but I'll survive.
I gotta go to bed cuz I'm so tired. It's not throbbing as bad as it was....but I'm pretty sure it's gonna hurt having all those blankets on it.
Damn. Sorry, hope it's not too swollen in the morning.
Me too. I ain't wearing no boots, that for damn sure. I gonna have to wear my adjustable sandles tomorrow. Of course it had to be when I have to drive all the way back across to the other side of town for a Dr appointment tomorrow, sooo that's not gonna be helpful.
*Le sigh, le mon petite sigh*
Is anyone else this accident prone, or is it just me? Like, my super power is to hurt myself in just about every way imaginable?
I'm sleepy and stuff, but it's hurting too much to be against the bed, and I'm not comfortable in the position I'm laying ijn so it's not....
I be okay, I just sleep once my brain is more tired than the pain is bad.
*sad face*
Also, I think I'm gonna wait on the surgery. I'm not playing their game, and giving them almost 900 bucks up front.
I have A bunch of other bills to pay and I don't have that kind of money just lying aroud. It didn't help the woman's case any that called me about it, that she acted like a condescending heifer, and talked down to me the whole time I was on the phone with her.
They can suck it.
I'm also sorry it's taking us so long to get back to the games.
Eventually things will settle down, and life will get back to normal.
Sorry, I didn't mean to vent all that at once, but the medical industry has been really frustrating me as of late.
Why are you going to tell someone that they have to have a surgery, tell them that it's gonna be scheduled aznd not worry blah blah blah, and then have your schedular person call me and say I'll have to pay 897 and change, before they'll do it?
Because they're greedy bastards that don't care about the person needing treatment, just the money. That's the way the medical machine sadly works.
I just wish that when it's someone she cares about or loves that is suffering and in need of medical care that they can't afford, that they offer her the same compassion she has shown me.
I'm also very angry....I can't stop myself from thinking about stuff sometimes, and now with everything going on....it's been even harder to block stuff out.
I just....I can't help how it makes me feel...or when those feelings choose to pop into my head.
It's usually when I really really tired and need to bed sleeping.
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I understand, I'm pretty sick of the medical industry as well.
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Well, now I have no choice. I'm going to have to get the surgery, and I'm getting a credit card and paying the full 897 whatever.
I'm doing it because if I don't, the outrageous copay of 134 bucks every time I see the spine specialist until my deductible is met, will kill us financially. The person who does the surgery scheduling, told me she could mail me a receipt along with something typed up on their letterhead stating that I paid that amount, so that when I see the spine Dr again on March 11th, they can't charge me that 134 anymore, so that's something at least.
So, I'm going to have the surgery on Tuesday, February 25th, and shed said I would be out at least until Friday, possibly the following Monday. It just depends on how the surgery goes, and what all she has to do to me while in there.
We're being audited today.
Everything will be okay. You know your stuff. More than most.
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Happy Anniversary my love, the light of my universe.
I would not trade these last 17 years for anything, and I am looking forward to seeing what our future holds.
I love you so so much!!
Forever Yours,
Jellybean
Ugh..had that happen twice in the last 5 years. It's just a pain in the ass.
We have internet again.
But, of course, that didn't happen without issue.
What happened?