Meowzebub |
Sorry to hear that Tark.
I have suffered a similar loss and am afraid it took me longer to shake lose from the depression then I would have expected. Here is a note I have prepared as a form of update to my mental health.
Hello friends. I hope all are well and have had a good holiday season.
I wish to apologize for my absence and the obvious hole it left in this game. I suffered a major shock in my life around Thanksgiving that has affected my network of family and friends, my emotional health, my career, and long term financial wellbeing.
My job increased in duties to overcome a vital loss in our small ranks just to make it to the new year. While we struggled to meet that milestone, my job may yet still evaporate in the coming months if the board moves to dissolve. Exhaustion and depression had settled over me, to a sense that I knew something was wrong but was unable to stop it.
I have been around long enough on these boards to see people up and disappear, and I always wondered what happened. Well, I am here to report that sometimes life can kick you in the teeth, and take something from you. I loved visiting these boards and not just for the online PbP. Several times a day. Usually first thing in the morning after checking email and last thing at night, looking for that last possible update. Well, a switch had been thrown in me. Something I loved just fell away.
Over Christmas, I did some travel to spend time in desolate places to clear my head. I love the desert and its effect on me. Seeing life growing, however limited, in the harshest of environments is a good inspiration for one looking to renew one's life or get over life's hurdles.
My job still may evaporate and I don't look forward to finding a similar job in this economy, BUT I have turned a corner and have begun to look at this proactively as something to prepare for instead of dread. Maybe even doing some fiction writing, something I always wanted, but a full-time career held me back...we will see.
Through this, my local friends and family have been supportive. In that vein I seek to get back with my wider net of friends I have made over the internet. Chatting with people all over the world in different locales and different (or the same) places in their life has always been an education and comfort. So while not completely over my depression (I have been battling depression to a smaller degree for a number of years now) I am in a better place, so I return to my old haunts. I want to thank those that reached out and others that expressed concern.
This is my first visit to the boards in quite some time, and I image there is a lot that has happened in my absence to go back and read. I suspect I have been dropped or replaced in some cases, and I totally understand and respect that. And again I apologize for the disruption I brought to this game. If the group does still have a place for me, I can begin to resume my postings here as I try to get back up to speed.
In either case I have enjoyed my time here and will read future developments as it has been a fine game.
Twilightrose |
It really sucks when things take an unexpected and unfortunate turn in life. I'm sorry to hear that you've been dealt this hand, and that it had such ill effects on you. I'm no stranger to depression myself, and have struggled with it intermittently since childhood. I am glad that you seem to be in the process of pulling yourself back out of it, and I sincerely hope that things pick up for you soon. *hugs*
TarkXT |
Full disclosures and posts to be made tomorrow night.
For the record I've spent the time between putting the house together and comforting the grieving playing a lot of dragon age.
Now that I've finished it without DLC's I'ma getting all the dlc's and the Slap Morrigan mod. Because g%+!** morrigan.
Zyren Zemerys |
Guys, something to talk about:
I got some more duties today at work...duties that take quite a lot of time, now ther are two ways how we could handle this:
a) We keep all campaigns and the rather the slow pace
b) we shut down some of the campaigns, but whould be able to up the speed of the remaining ones.
Vaughn Elliot |
I'm only in HOD. I like it, despite the slow pace, and would be sad to see it go. I humbly request not shutting it down (yet!!), but can offer no unbiased opinion on shutting others down.
Twilightrose |
Heart of Riddles will probably always be my favorite since I'm the most attached to Bree and have been playing her the longest. That being said, I'd hate to loose either of the campaigns I'm in or yours.
On a side note: I just wanted to drop in a note to say that things have been kinda crappy for me so far this year. 2014 has been unkind to me. I won't get into all of the details, but I just wanted to explain why I haven't been very active in and out of game. I'm still totally interested in all of my campaigns, heck, I'm even DMing that Eberron campaign now. I'm just... well, to be honest, trying like hell to keep myself from becoming seriously depressed and get my crap in order. Please excuse my slowness to respond to things.
Franz Flechter |
Up to you of course, I'm fine so far but it's still limiting for me to constantly underplay my character due to the knowledge I have of the adventure. If I'm too central that causes trouble, so, I'd prefer to defer to my fellow players. Are the dawi still playing it's been a while, and my time of delay didn't help matters? On the other hand, things are looking up right now, so such a long delay should not reoccur for the foreseeable future.
Mark Sweetman |
So I bought some of this over the weekend... and was presently surprised when it didn't suck. Not the pretty-est sets and so forth, but the catapult's got a decent draw to it :)
Bilbo Bang-Bang |
With my recent job change and returning to school it looks like I will be retreating from the gaming scene for some time, guys. So as the windows open for proper exits I will be slipping out of them. Most of my games seem to be at this point now and so I will be working with you guys to arrange what we need to do.
Shifty |
Yo ho yo ho a pirates life for me!
I need to hold another PFS Pirates day now, maybe an easy session followed by Skull & Shackles 1.
Shifty |
I am not convinced yet...somehow the trailer made me think of a renaissance fair hosted on 'The Beach' (or by the Rakyat, chose whatever you like) instead of 'yeah pirates'...
I too was a bit dubious, as frankly I wasn't sure it would match up to Pirates or Pirates II:Stagnetti's Revenge, but so far so good in Ep1.
We don't really have Ren Faires, so I suppose we aren't jaded yet :)With the next season of Vikings due out in April I might have to crack out RoW, though think the Shades of Ice trilogy would go well as a primer, to avoid L1 squishy problems.
Shifty |
All food for thought.
I'm a bit jaded on AP's by PbP as the track record of completion isn't that hot, and tagging in people once you are in deep seems pretty sketchy. I'm more open minded about the Modules and 'Long Mods' like Dragons Demand though, as there's a ready market of PFS guys all keen to jump in on them.
RoW (the bit I played) was a lot of fun though. Then again so was S&S, but think that fell apart for other reasons.
Anyhow, all food for thought, wont be starting much til March.