It's okay, robin. I can see that it would seem like something Clandru would do in-character (even if it's bad tactics from a metagame perspective).
Since Malv has seemed to disappear for 11 days now, I'll be taking over the game this weekend is he doesn't return...
Hello, all.
Well, obviously, I'm back. And, I'm pretty much okay. I've been following things here for a couple of days now, actually, but it's been hard for me to post, because I'm not sure how to explain my absence. I'm going to try, though, without getting into too much detail. I've actually started typing this post and then scrapping the whole thing a few times now. But, here goes...
First, let me sincerely apologize. I know it stinks to have people disappear from PBP games...especially the DM. It's hard to justify not giving any notice (although I'm about to try). But really, I know it makes you all wonder what's going on. Is the game dying? Is he okay? Not cool, I know, and I do appreciate those who expressed concern for me.
So, here's the thing. I have some fairly serious issues with depression and anxiety. Most of the time, life is peachy. But there are times when things get hectic and stressful (and life does that), and the wheels just sort of fall off. I manage to still go through the regular motions (work, family stuff), but I find during those times that I just can't handle anything else. And I know that I should just post and say 'Guys, I need a few days,' but I always hope that it will pass quickly, and I'll be able to pick things up without a problem. But then, I start feeling bad because the game is stalled, people are wondering what's going on...and it stresses me out more, and becomes a vicious spiral. And the next thing I know, it's been two weeks, and I wonder where the time went, and I feel better and miss my games. That's the short version, and it's probably pretty difficult to understand if you don't know someone who deals with this sort of thing.
I want to say that I really appreciate everyone who decided to jump in and pick up the reigns of the games. So, Scribbling Rambler, Xaaon, Shisumo, thank you so much for not leaving all my wonderful players hanging. This is really a great community.
For today, it's really tempting to say that I'm ready to pick up the games again, and start posting. Because, I feel up to doing that...today. But, I just don't know if I can make that commitment, knowing myself as I do. Because, it will happen again. It always does. How will I feel tomorrow, or next week, or next month?
But I miss my games, I like DMing in this format, and I think I'm even passably good at it. So what to do? I think, for now, if you all don't mind, I'll just watch things unfold with the new DMs. Maybe I can even weigh in from time to time with a comment, or maybe there could even be a way for me to contribute with maps or some sort of co-DM position? I don't know.
I would enjoy discussing this with everyone, I know that much. What do you all think?
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Sounds fine to me. I am going on vacation tomorrow so I will not be posting. But just run Sorin as you will I just really wanted to show Lamm his dead partners body with the note on it so I am good with this encounter. Sorin will try his best to kill Lamm but now that Hookshanks is dead he is not willing to dead to get Lamm.
See every one next Monday.
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Heya Malv, I'll be the permanent co-DM, so when you're ready to come back lemme know, you take over and if I notice there's a few days of lull, I can pick it up! =D
Just glad you're not push'n up daisies...when I was playing EQ, one of my guildmembers went up with the WTC...he was an Elevator guy...so obviously we never heard from him again...kind of a bummer...
Lemme know =D
Whew, yeah, fortunately it's nothing so serious as that!
Hey Xaaon, much appreciated. For now, can you go ahead and finish off the fishery? I have finals this week, but after that, I should be ready to step back up to the plate and DM this thing.
Xaaon,
btw, thanks for continuing to DM for a while longer. Now, if only some players would show up.
Xaaon,
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Did you have a plan for Pavo's sister? Was she gonna be below? or dead?
Xaaon,
OK, since you're taking back over, I'll roll with what you had planned...wicked...that should make it a toss up for who kills him, Marra or Pavo...unless...naw, I'm sure he'll monologue it...
Just to say , I'm real uncomfortable when a DM is playing his own PC in an adventure
K...just know that Malv has said he'll be taking over when the fishery is done, and it's not like I started out being DM and player in this one...do you feel I have been unfair in some respect?
I'm playing Marrala in exactly the same way I would have before.
Malv, we're almost done with this scene, are you going to be able to take back over? been a couple of weeks since you posted. Have you finished your finals?
If Malv doesn't take back over, what do you guys want to do? I don't have a problem with continuing to run it. I know Robin has a problem with having a DMPC in the game, how do the rest of you feel?
I think you are doing fine, keep going if you don't mind because I really want to keep playing this game. That and all my other Pbp's died out.
Some of mine have as well, I was in 3 games with Shisumo...so one of those died, the
If we continue, I will fade Marra back, let her become more of a ghost than an actual actor, unless Malv takes back over, which would allow me to take back over her full time.
(been almost a month since Malv posted again.)
Malv, if you're around, Gaedren's fishfood, so you ca take back over, I'll keep running it until I know you're back...and taking over.
My apologies Robin for having a DMPC, but I'm just keeping the game running...don't worry, Marra won't be such a pain now that Gaedren is gone.
Just to let you all know that I have vecation time coming up soon, as such, from June 25th to about July 6th, I will probably not be able to post. I might have internet access, if that is the case then I will try to find time to post, but that might not be entirely possible.